I love you. But you don't (A tale of Unrequited Love)

7th grade.

What the hell is happening to me? Whenever you walk by me there's this weird feeling in my chest. There an even worse one when I see you with her. Addison what did you do to me? I can't keep you off of my mind. I stay up late trying to figure it all out. What is this feeling? Why do I have it? What is it about you? How come when I brushed your hand, I felt sparks go up my arm? I even went so far as to ask Bri, my bff, what is happening. I was fine and considering how long I've been hiding feelings , I was sure no one could tell that I thought about kissing you or how it would be if you were my boyfriend. I was so sure until Aziyanah told everyone. Even you knew. That was the first of the only two days I cried over you. The second time was out of pure pain. But I'll get to that later. I didn't want to face you but I actually managed to get the courage to have a conversation with you. I remember that you said your favorite car is a Lamborghini. Its been a little more than a year yet I still remember your words. I was texting bri late at night and we started to talk about you. She told me to repeat in my head 'I don't have a crush on Addison' but it didn't work at all. She told me the I was in love. I didn't want to be. But I didn't have a choice. For the rest of the year I watched from afar making quick glances almost letting you go. I said almost because I didn't. I don't know maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic but, I always saw you looking at me staring at me until I caught you. Then you'd turn around and look away. That was the only thing that stopped me besides your constant teasing.

I actually hope you find and read this. I would be too much of a wimp to talk to you anyways.

I guess I'm going to stop here. I don't remember anymore.