I got proactive. I texted Seiko. 'I'm back. Had you planned dinner, or should I have my Thanksgiving leftovers instead?'
Seiko sent back, 'If you have leftovers, go ahead.'
I considered the implications of eating before she got here. I sent, 'I'd rather eat/chat with you. If you're okay with that. If not, it's fine too.' I forced my fingers to stop typing more words.
After a pause, I got: 'I should be there in under an hour.'
I sent, 'I'll wait.'
Then, in a fit of sudden confidence, I texted Paige. 'Thanks for the notes. I'm back on campus, how about you?'
She responded pretty quickly. 'Yup. Enjoy your time away?'
'It went well for me,' I said. 'Yourself?'
This response seemed to take longer. 'Family stuff happened.'
That felt bad, for some reason. 'Want to talk about it?'
Another pause. 'Not in text. It's fine.'
I went in for the kill. 'Can we maybe talk after class tomorrow?'
After the longest ten seconds of my life: 'I'd like that.'
As is typical, I then went one bridge too far. 'Will your boyfriend be joining us?'
I stared at that message, wondering how on Earth I could have hit send. Too late – I couldn't take it back now. This time, it took more than ten seconds for a response. In fact, we were at the point where I'd started fumbling for my stress ball in my luggage.
'I don't have a boyfriend, Rose,' Paige messaged. 'I sometimes say I do, to avoid questions. I'm not sure who you've been talking to.'
I stared at that message, wondering what the appropriate response would be. After all, I hadn't been talking to anyone; I'd merely seen her fawning over that guy the previous Thursday. Should I say I saw that? My hesitation must have lasted too long, because before I could get my thoughts in order, another message came in from Paige.
'I don't have a girlfriend either.'
My breath caught in my throat. Was that an invitation? The six most amazing words, when they got strung together like that.
Followed three seconds later with 'j/k'.
Now my thumbs mashed my phone without hesitation. 'Don't joke that, Paige. Please don't, not that.'
Another pause. 'I've been burned before.'
'Give me names! I will fight them for you, my lady!'
Pause. 'You're silly.'
Uhhh... good silly? Dumb silly? See, this is why I'm more hesitant to text; it's very hard to get a read on where you're both at in a conversation. Also, I know I can sound irritated instead of witty, if I don't have my voice to put the emPHAsis on the proper sylLABles. Which is simply awkward when done in caps like that.
As I fretted, Paige sent again: 'Looking forward to talking tomorrow. Okay?'
'Okay. I love your perfume.'
Rose, you need to stop using words. Paige sent me a little smile emoji though, so having somehow pulled that one out of the fire, I shut off my phone before I was tempted to reply with something even stupider.
I possibly would have a girlfriend. And I was maybe figuring out how to text without sounding like a rambling passive-aggressive. I briefly debated updating all my statuses on the various social media accounts that I never used. But, you know, baby steps. Also, I had no plans to come out to the whole world just yet.
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
The Girl Who Speaks With Algebra
Fiksi RemajaTwo characters create a bridge - between the human world, where Rose is questioning her sexuality at university, and the fractal math world, where Sine is lost and alone. Can the two of them help each other out? Or will their connection merely put b...