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Emotions

[AN: Omygod. Ang tagal kong hindi nag-update. Guess what, days? nah, weeks? nah, months? yes. Sorry talaga guys. Lack of internet, exams, katamaran, busy, lahat lahat na. This one is short update, I know.. ang tagal kong hindi nag-update tas ang konti ng napublish ko. Bawi ako next chapter!]

Mas lalo pa atang lumala ang mga pangyayari.

After we had this Sine Mo To segment na kami ang bida, naging awkward na ang atmosphere. Ang mas malala, the script was too intimating knowing our situation, napakahirap. But for the sake of our  show, we did it like we usually do. The rest of the show never kaming nagpansinan. Basa ng spiels, adlibs, at plain interview na lang ang naganap. 

I never had this idea na magiging ganito kami.

Suddenly, things went round at parang nabaliktad lahat.  

Instead of looking for the answer, ito na pala, binabasa ko na mismo ang sagot sa katanungan ko. 

..crossing the line of being friends is like losing someone you love and letting go someone that you treasure as a friend. It's a double-heartbreak thing.

Snap. That's it.  

Binasa ko ulit ang nakasulat na text sa libro. I crossed the line, that's the problem right here. Bakit pa ba ako magtataka? Friendship is what you call being friends within each other na walang malisya, feelings at pretentions. Sadly, that didn't work, it existed. It definitely will.

Ewan ko ba, naiinis ako sa sarili ko. 

As I closed the book, pinikit ko muna ang mga mata ko. My train of thoughts shooed away nang may kumatok sa pinto. Instead of getting annoyed, I felt saved from the tears na malapit nang bumagsak, I felt relieved at some point. 

Naglakad na ako papuntang pinto at binuksan ito, and there I saw Vhong. 

Bakit ba lagi kang timing? 

“Hi Kar--” nagtaka ako kung bakit siya tumigil. Nakatingin lang siya saakin, the usual mapagmatiyag and sensitive Vhong. In just a second, biglang napalitan ang mukha niya, nangibabaw ang confused at worried na expression. That's the time he hugged me, the perfect time I guess. 

Thank God for giving me a friend like Vhong, my savior.

I felt safe lalo na nung nilagay ko ang both hands ko sa waist niya. Napaka-comfortable, feel kong narelease ang lahat ng stress at badvibes sa katawan ko. That really made a difference, why can't I have this with Vice? 

Kasi nga may gap. May malaking wall, may harang, may obstacle, may pumipigil.  

“Malungkot ka nanaman, yan ka nanaman.” he whispered habang nakayakap parin saakin. Napakacalm at light ng boses niya, at some instances, I was wondering, bakit ba lahat ng bagay napakagaan sa kaniya? Maybe that's how you define a Vhong Navarro. A happy-go-lucky person that can make you feel the world lighter, kahit buhat mo na ang universe sa dami ng problema. 

Bumitaw na siya sa pagkakayakap, “Okay ka lang?” 

I heave a sigh, am I okay? Nakakatawa, para akong nasa teleserye na nainlove sa isang taong walang pakielam.  

“Okay lang ak-” I stopped nang makita ang mukha niya, the same expression I got yesterday nung hinila niya ako. The serious Vhong, another persona that Vhong possess. I let out a heavy sigh. Maybe I could tell my feelings, atleast, sa mga taong may pakielam saakin. Unlike him.

“Okay, sige na.. masakit kasi eh. Being head over heels with the one you love, that eventually, cannot love you back hurts. It hurts that any words can describe.”