My Servant {BoyxBoy}

Chapter 13

My servant 13

Sometimes before it gets better

The darkness gets bigger

The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger -Fall out boy "Miss Missing you"

Chapter song: Time-bomb by: All Time Low

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Ryan's P.O.V}

I just finished speaking with Ron; the plan is definitely back in action now. All the kinks are worked out and soon Simon is going to wish he hadn't been an asshole to so many people. Right now though all I have to do is find him, act as natural as possible and just wait out the rest of the day.

For some reason though, even with all the reassuring, my heart feels heavy and cracked. It's like my heart is breaking for him and It kills me. Why do I have to feel this way about a monster like him? My brain is telling me not to do this, to simply leave and never return. Oh how glorious it would be to have had this never happen to me. Because even if Simon has done bad things in his time his heart still breaks, he feels just like everybody else in the world.

'No! You can't just treat him like garbage! Like he never meant a thing to you, because you know he did Ryan!' Of course my conscience decided to take a big stab at me. Well I can't listen, now's not the time.

The hallways seemed shorter then normal as I rounded the corner, closing in on Simon's room. No matter how much my pace slowed his room just seemed so close no matter what. My body knows what's going to happen. Honestly I'm sick to my very core about all of this. Simon has got to be so blissfully unaware of the events soon to take place. It's true that ignorance is kind, because the truth can cut like a knife.

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Far too soon for my enjoyment I reached Simons door, as I raised my hand to knock the door opened. My raven haired boyfriend stood in the doorway looking startled having almost run into me. Within seconds his expression turned to that of happiness, he threw his arms around my neck like a child who had just seen his parents after losing them in the grocery store.

Of course my heart swelled just from seeing him. Since I've kind of been hiding all day I haven't gotten my daily dose of him yet. Although given the circumstances I wish he'd been gone or something. Given my luck however I'm not shocked at all that he's here and looking as cute as ever. It's apparently always the sweet and quiet ones you have to watch. Then again Ron isn't either yet somebody should've really watched him or something.

"Hi Ryan, where have you been all day? I mean usually I've seen you around at least once you usually always wake me up,"

"Sorry Si I've been busy since I woke up this morning, but I'm here now so lets hang out," I spoke forcing myself to smile for him and pretend everything is alright. For a moment he seemed weary of my answer though he brushed it off in mere moments.

"Sure, wanna go to the gardens or the pond to feed the ducks. Ooh or maybe we can explore all the secret rooms. Or, or," Simon rambled excitedly. There's no way I couldn't have noticed how cute he sounded when his mind flared up with suggestions.

"Shh shhh, Simon sweetheart we can just do all of the above. How does that sound?"

"Like fun. Sorry if I've come off like a needy girlfriend or something I just feel like spending time with you ya know? .....That sounds kind of pathetic doesn't it? We don't have to do anything if you don't want to," May I state once again, precious.

With a soft chuckle I drew Simon away but held one of his hands in mine, interlocking our fingers. God I love the way he makes me feel but I hate it so much at the same time. If we could've met any other time, any other place.. There's no telling what we could've been.