On tour with my ex...Conor Maynard

Can we survive?

i walked back into the studio and saw Conor on set with the photographer telling him to stand in different positions. i slowly walked over to the leather sofa which was placed oppisite from the big white wall conor was standing against. onced i had sat down i looked at Conor who was already looking at me, my face was emotionless but he could see in my eyes the pain, the hurt and the betrayal i was feeling inside. a lump formed in my throat so i tried to cough to get rid of it knowing i cant cry in here without it being everywhere the next day with headlines such as

'Kelsey breaks down at photo shoot' and 'Is the fame starting to make Kelsey crumble'

i sat there listening to my ipod waiting for Conor to finish so we could go back to the tour bus. every now and then i could feel Conors eyes on me but i just ignored them at stared at my ipod.

"finished!" the photographer finally shouted out, i pulled my earphones out of my ears and wrapped them around my ipod before getting up off the sofa and walking over to Claire and Mark to wait for Conor. He soon came over and stood next to me, claire and mark look at us as if we had three heads

"what?" me and conor said at the same time

"whats happened?" Claire said cautiously

"nothing" i said acciendly making it sound forced, she looked at me not beliveing a single word

"look, can we just go back to the tour bus?" i sighed.

The journey back to the tour bus was awkward. I didn't have anything to say to Conor and I'm glad I didn't because I don't think I could trust my voice box to make my voice sound strong and not shaky. As soon as we got back on the tour bus I walked straight to the main bedroom which me and Conor shared. I could hear him following me

"Conor leave me alone" I said sharply not facing him

"We need to talk" Conor said

"About what Conor? How you broke my heart? Or that I'm stupid for believing that you actually loved me?" I snapped at him finally looking at him. He closed the bedroom door once we were both in the room

"That girl came on to me!" He pleaded

"Oh please Conor at least give me the slightest bit of respect and tell me the truth!" My voice was starting to shake

"That is the truth Kels" he begged as he went to hold my hand but I moved away before he could

"Then why didn't you push her away?" I asked quietly looking into his eyes

"I was going to but you walked in before I had the chance"

"Whatever" I sighed, giving up

"Why don't you believe me?" He asked quietly, I could hear the pain in his voice

"It's not that Conor it's-" I started to to say

"It's what Kels?" He asked softly

"Every time it starts to go right and we're happy something messes it up and the world doesn't even know we're dating yet Conor! Do you think this relationship can last when we are both getting hate or when the media come up with stories" I started raising my voice not because I was angry at Conor but angry at the whole situation

"Kels..." Before Conor could carry on I spoke again

"When we finish this tour what's going to happen? Is it still going to be the same because we will both be busy and a lot of the time we will be on completely different sides of the world doing promo and stuff" my voice was shaking and cracking but I carried on "we can skype call each other yes, but I don't want that all the time Conor, I want to hold your hand, kiss your lips but I can't fucking do that when were both in different countries! And then there's whe-"

"I LOVE YOU KELSEY!" Conor shouted but not in an angry way but so it would shut me up and get my attention, which it did. He walk towards me slowly with out breaking eye contact until he was stood right in front of me and looked down at my hands as he took them in his before looking back into my eyes

"...so that means that I dont care what people say, I don't care if they don't like the idea of us being together. And we can work out our time schedules so we can see each other as often as possible and I will promise you that I will not go a week without skypeing you or seeing you" Conor said softly. I let go of his hands before wrapping my arms around his waist and placing my head against his chest as he wrapped he's arms around my shoulders

"I love you Conor" I said quietly but he could still hear me

"I love you to Kels and don't ever forget that"

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Authors note

This is a really short chapter I know but there will be another one up soon I promise! I've literally just wrote this in my Genetics lesson so if its bad please forgive me but I won't have anytime to update for a few days plus my Genetics lesson is really boring

If you like reading my fanfic you should go and read:

Lost in love (conor maynard) by 14kate14x

Only You (Conor Maynard Fanfiction) by MayniacForLife0

What Would Your Father Say? (Conor Maynard fanfic) by Conors_VegasGirl

Also if you are going to meet Conor next week at the book signings I am extremely jealous of you all but I hope you all have an amazing time! I can't go even though I live literally 15 minutes from the Blackburn signings so if you're going to that one please tweet me or comment or DM me.

Maynardspanda

Xxxx