The Loss of A Best Friend

You,

The one that I could always trust,

The one I could talk to for hours on end,

The one who I shared all my secrets with,

The one I called my best friend.

We used to be so close,

Unseperable, even.

But now things are different, and you don't seem to care.

My heart feels torn open, but you don't seem to notice.

What happened, don't ask me.

All I know is that we started drifting farther and farther apart.

Even though that was years ago,

I still feel that pain.

But YOU...

You just continue your life like nothing has happened,

Nothing has changed,

Nothing is wrong.

You leave me there,

Without a second glance to spare,

Of course we still talk,

In the halls after class.

But it is not the same.

Mindless chatter to fill the awkward air.

Of course we still laugh,

At silly classmate antics.

But it is not the same.

Forced humor, when my heart aches too much for words

Do you realize what this does to me?

Do you even care?

To re-live the pain, each day,

Knowing that things will never be the same,

That there is an un-closeable gap between us.

A gap that you seem to make no effort to close.

I guess you've moved on,

You've found somewhere that the grass seems to be greener,

and that place is not with me.

Do I wish things were different?

Always.

Would I take you back in an instant?

Absolutely.

Can I bring myself to tell you?

Never.