I’m not sure what I feel after leaving Dr. Hendrix’s office. She told me that she understood my apprehension. But no matter what, I needed to forgive him. Because to truly get over my problem, I needed to let go of all my past grudges that got me into this position. I didn’t have to forget, not yet, but I needed to forgive.
I don’t know where forgiving him would even start.
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I stand in front of my mirror, stripped down to the bare essentials. I place one palm on the cold surface. The person I see copies my movements exactly, their empty dark blue eyes watching me. I look at them, they look at me. Hip, collar, rib bones all protruding. Skinny, small, thin. Everything. I should be happy.
I am happy.
I am not happy.
Too thin. Too skinny.
What have I done?
You’ve ruined everything.
Everything was always ruined.
You’ll never be beautiful.
You were never meant to be beautiful.
I’m done. I quit. We’re over. I’m breaking up with you.
No respect, no confidence. I can’t love someone who can’t love themselves.
No wonder he gave up, there was nothing worth fighting for.
He finally saw what everyone else did.
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Teen Fiction"We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need." Everyone is beautiful, but not everyone can see it. Lucy is beautiful, but when she looks into the mirror - she can't see it. She's driven to an eating di...
