2 A.M. RANTS

Sun. 6/5 1:14 A.M.

Numb

I want to feel numb

I want to forget the feeling that you gave me

Of your fingers tracing constellations on my skin

Of your lips caressing my neck

I want to forget

Because you've already moved on

She's prettier than me

Taller than me

Skinnier than me

She's everything more than me

I see why you left

But I keep picturing the lazy mornings in bed

And the tickle fights

And the way you told me that you loved me every chance you had

I want to forget it

For all the memories to vanish from my mind

Like they never even happened

I want to be numb

So I don't have to feel my heart crumble

With all the little shards settling in the pit of my stomach

I don't want to be feeling this

Or anything

I want to feel numb

Numb