Destiny

Ch.13 Turning Back

Ch. 13 Turning Back

When I get outside I get as far away from that place as possible. I sprint straight for a while and then start turning corners where I reach the streets squished between too many buildings.

I need to find somewhere to sleep for the night, but I can’t even focus on where I am enough to try and think of where I should go. I am still running about twenty minutes after I left that place when I finally calm down enough to slow to a walk and think about my problems for the day.

I will not go back there, but that means being out here alone again and even if I don’t know Alek very well, his company was still better than no one’s. No, it was MUCH better than no one’s.

I take a look at my surroundings and feel an emptiness that I have never felt before open up inside me. What am I supposed to do now? Just go back to being alone?

I sigh and realize that I shouldn’t be complaining since I have just left the place that would have had others to talk to and to be around, but I really see no other option. Those people obviously can’t be trusted and I am not going to stay in a place like that. If I ever come across them again I will have to trust them a bit more to even consider going back.

And then there is Anthony. My questions for him are in no way limited. Why wouldn’t he want me to go there or stay there once I found that place? I mean, not that it really matters too much, but it seems like that question needs answering. It may answer many of my questions.

Another thing. What the hell was with those people!? Why would anyone in their right mind put people through that just to test them?

I think about this for a while before I realize that they just let me leave. They didn’t stop me. They didn’t erase my memory, so why did they just let me go with their location in my head? Would they have someone follow me?

I have the sudden urge to whip my head around and search for someone who seems out of place, but I resist it. If there really is someone following me that would only make it worse, they will be much more careful if they think that I am looking for someone. So I don’t hastily look around all at once. I make little movements that give me the points of view to see behind me or above me. A casual hair flip here, a carefully placed glance up at the sky there.

I see nothing, but that doesn’t mean that no one is following me, it just means that they are hiding themselves well, or I am could just be being paranoid.

But probably not. I don’t think that they would be stupid enough to just let me out with what I now know about them.

I look around me this time, but not bothering to be subtle. If I haven’t spotted them yet then I probably won’t anyway.

I sigh. I should find somewhere to stay tonight.

I start walking in the direction of the North end of the District.

I found a place to settle for the night, but who knows what will happens, so there is no point in sleeping. Whoever followed me could somehow find their way in and that would not result in anything good.

I look out the window and decide to leave it open for the night. That will help keep me awake. The breeze and the noises of the crazed will definitely keep me awake and alert.

A bit of wind flows through the window making me shiver. It’s a bit chilled outside and soon I will have to start worrying about a heavy coat because of the winter.

Damn this District. Damn the freaking Crowns. Damn this world. Why the hell does it have to be like this? There must be thousands of others out there like me just trying to find shelter from night to night.