Who can i trust?-cimorelli

Vocal Cord Hemorrhage

The girls have been travelling all over the country doing the same as usual

Performing, meeting fans, signing their autographs, and many other things

Today is their last performance before going home

Christina POV

i woke up early today to go out for a run, elli tagged along

We were dallas texas,

*20min later *

Once we got back to the bus elli ran to the shower before i did, now i have to wait until she finishes

Everyone else was wide awake and eating breakfast, i sat down and had my breakfast aswell

After 10 min elli came out of the shower, it was my turn to have a shower

Elli POV

"Don't come into the room, im getting changed!" I shouted before entering the room,

I was getting changed as quick as i could, once i finished i went to go and eat breakfast with the others

I had cerials, "so what are we going to do today?" I asked them, "idk, usual i guess" lauren replied

I slipped the ring onto my finger, the bracelet onto my wrist and the necklace onto my neck

I got a text from ryden - hey, how have you been with your tour? He asked me, i replied "the same as usual, boring, nothing to do, ryden-aw poor you, go out and have some fun , elli-yea right, if that is possible, i have to go sound check, bye

We drove to the sound check, inside it was massive, in the rooms there were foose table so lauren,dani and i went to go play on it, it was really fun until we got called out to go rehearse

When it was my turn to rehearse my throat started to hurt, i just put it to the side thinking it's just temporary

I started to sing, my throat started to hurt even more, next thing you know, my voice breaks

I stop singing instantly, i croak into the microphone "i can't sing, my voice just broke, you're gonna have to find someone else to open up for you"

I got off the stage and sat down in one of the chairs, a medic came to check up on me, he checked my throat and asked me a bunch of questions, he said that i had "Vocal Cord Hemorrhage" he also said that i shouldn't talk and that i should drink plenty of water

So all i could do is nod my head or shake it

Lisa came and sat down next to me "can you talk?" I shooked my head, "so you can't open up for us?" Again i shooked my head, she sighed, "how am i supposed to have a dmc when you can't talk" i just shrugged my shoulder, then i acted out me writing on something, she seemed to get it so she ran off and came back with a white board and a white board marker

I started drawing on the board, "so elli , i heard your middle name was ataahua?" Lisa asked me, i nodded my head, "what does that mean?" She asked me again i wrote 'beautiful', she smiled, i then wrote "just like you"

She looked at the board and started to smile, "you always know how to make me happy don't you?" She said, i just smiled and nodded my head

"Well , its time to go back," she said while helping me up

We were on our way back to the bus when a mob of fans decided to chase us, well i just ran back to the bus while the girls were out there signing autographs

Once i entered the bus i made honey tea to soothen my throat, the girls then entered the bus 5 min later, "hey elli" lauren said to me , i just looked at her and smile

"You're not talking, whats going on?" She asked me, i gestured to my throat, she knew what i was talking about because she said oh

*6pm*

The girls left to go perform at their concert, i stayed in the bus with doug, well actually he left to go watch the girls perform

5ever alone, i was bored so i decided to go to sleep, i got a text from lisa-come inside now

I got out of bed and walked into the stadium, once i got back stage lisa saw me, she walked up to me and pulled me out on stage, i didn't want to go on stage since i was in my pj's , it was embarrasing

"This is our foster sister elli, she has been opening for us in the last few concerts, but today her voice broke because she has Vocal Cord Hemorrhage so she cant talk, anyways we just want to thank you all tonight for coming to our concert" christina finished off, then i walked off that so that they could finish ,singing their last song

I was so tired that i could barely walk, lisa had to carry me on her back ,back to the bus, "thanks lisa" i said in a low raspy voice, "you shouldn't talk elli, and anything for you" she replied, i rested my head on her shoulder and smiled,she layed me down on the bed, she got changed into her pj's, and crawled into bed with me

" we go home tomorrow" i said to her in a raspy voice again, "elli how many times do i have to tell you to not talk?, and yea we go home, you excited?" I nodded my head

"Go to sleep ātaahua" she said before i dozed off to sleep

"Lisa please don't leave me, i need you" i said to her, while she walks away

I drop onto the ground crying, i grab a razor blade and start cutting my arm,

"Elli you were never there for me when i needed you, it was always about yourself" she said in disgust, what did i do to her to make her hate me?

I feel so lost, i just want to kill myself right now

I felt someone shaking me i slowly open my eyes to see lisa ontop of me

"Elli are you alright?" She asked me, i was sweating and crying, i shook me head

"You wanna go out for some fresh air?" She asked me again, i nodded my head, it was 2 in the morning so we got out of the bus as quietly as we could

"Ok elli, were you having a nightmare?" I nodded me head, "what was it about?" She asked me,"you said "Elli you were never there for me when i needed you, it was always about yourself"" i told her, i started to cry, "elli why do you think like that, you have always been there for me, and everytime you have been there , you always end up getting hurt" she replied, i just shrugged me shoulders, we went back inside the bus and sat on the couch, i laid my head in her lap and fell alseep

Lisa POV

Elli keeps having nightmares,im starting to get worried, she fell asleep on my lap, i started stroking her hair, once she fell asleep, i slowly got off and walked back into the room to get her a blanket.once i got back in the living room i placed a blanket on elli

I was about to walk back into the room until elli caught my attention "lisa please don't leave me" she sounded desperate and sad, so I slept on the couch opposite from her so that i could keep an eye on her, i wouldn't want her sad, if she is sad im sad