Nathan's P.O.V
Justin let me spend the night and all I kept thinking was... WHY. Why me? why now? why him? why all over the world wide web?. really why me?, I thought he hated me after having s3x and beating me. Now he wants me to be his boyfriend, what do I say to him? why now? is it because i'm pregnant? or does he really love me? why him? with what he did to me why him of all people? and why'd he do it over the internet? maybe to prove something. I haven't checked my cell in hours, I'm kinda afraid to. I know there's good comments and stuff, with good comes bad right? But I pick up my cell anyway. I stare at it for a little till I unlocked the screen, I noticed I had a lot of messages but that's not what I click on. I click on Twitter, I looked at the notifications and there was millions. I don't know if I want to see there's, I close the Twitter going straight to the messages.
Jay 4 texts and one missed call
Logan 5 texts and one missed call
Max 3 texts
Mom 6 texts and one missed call
Tom 2 text
Dad 3 texts and two missed calls
Sis 5 texts and one missed call
Siva 1 text
Louis 3 texts
Harry 1 text
Who do I answer first? My mom texted me the most but dad called twice. No one but the boys know what happened between Jay and I, that and everyone thought I was straight. How am I going to tell my mom and dad, I know my sister will be fine with it but I don't know about dad. I'll call my sister and tell her everything, then get her advice. Like what should I tell my parents, the truth they'll hate Jay. But if I lie I'll hate myself, I push call under my sister and it started ringing.
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I left Logan and Jay for last, I text Logan saying I'm fine I'll talk about it when I get home.
(Meet me at Logan's house tomorrow afternoon
Logan's address 2 dream Avenue lean)
I text Jay and put my cell down.
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I wake up the next morning still tired, which I guess is normal being pregnant. I don't even know what time it is, I pick up my cell looking at the time and three new messages. Two from Jay and one from Logan, I opened Jay's first.
{what time?} Jay 10:45 am
{I'm on my way} Jay 11:30 am
It's 12 now
{thanks for the warning, whatever now I can interrogate him} Logan 11:45 am
That's 15 minutes alone with Logan, come on she says she's going to interrogate him. I get up as fast as I can, I have to pee. I go the bathroom, fix my hair and wrote a note for Justin. Then left, heading straight for Logan's. By the time I get there it's already 12:45 pm, she's spent and hour interrogating Jay. I open the door to see the both of them in deep conversation but when I close the door, they both looked at me
"Hi" I say walking forward
They both smile at me, then Logan stands up and walks over to me.
"How you doing" Logan asks hugging me
I squeeze her a little.
"Overwhelmed" was all I could say
"Do you want me to stay" she asks
"You can stay here but i do need to talk to him alone" I say
"My room it is" Logan says kissing my forehead and started for her room.
"She's a really nice girl" Jay says
"Ya she trys to be" I say walking towards Jay and the couch.
"Nathan, you do know i care about you right? I always have, I was just scared to admit it but now I'm not. I'm not scared to admit I like you, I may even love you. No I do love you" Jay says
"Jay you can't do that" I say
"I can't do what? Love you. Well I can love who ever I want, Nathan. I know I'm not good enough for you but I still love you, and I always will. Even if we're not together." Jay says
"Why" I ask
"Why what" Jay asks
"Why me" I ask
Thats when Jay just looked at me for a little while, I have no idea what he's thinking.
"Nathan your the most amazing person I've ever met, you're sweet, careing, kind hearted, soft spoken. You have this aura about you, its peaceful and warm. Vintage really" Jay says looking right at me.
I don't know what to say, I know he means it but I still can't get over the fact that he hurt me in the first place.
"It may have been blunt but I really do love you, I can't help but smile thinking about the what ifs. Like what if we were to date? Raise our baby together? Maybe get married" Jay says
"Jay your moving really fast, I don't know what I'm going to do... I don't know if I can be in a relationship with a guy thats already put his hands on me" I say harshly
"Ya it may be fast but its how I feel, just like how i was so upset with myself for what i did to you. I was going to kill myself for hurting you but you called, You called right when I was going to down a bottle of pills. you were my saving angel you and the baby, when you told me you were pregnant and keeping it. I know it was a sign, a sign to treat you right. To love you the right way, when you're ready." Jay says
I just stare at him, he was going to kill himself?
