Someone once told you, "if you don't have anything good to say, just don't say anything.." but they mistook that for "i don't hear anything, so everything must be alright.." you wonder if that's helping.., you don't think it does because she just keeps on going on and on and on and not care... but if you say something, that definitely doesn't help because it just adds fuel to the fire...
you have to admit you are burning up in anger inside me, you're like a walking time bomb, difference is you don't know how much time you got left to explode, you just hope you can leave before you explode or else it will get messy... actually that's the only thing you're sure of, when you get angry at THEM you just keep it bottled up inside you, you don't want to get angry, you don't want to hate them but you just can't help it, they're walking with their heads held up high like some high priest and think that they can preach, what a bunch of hypocrites
you certainly feel alone...
you don't want to be like THEM..
YOU'RE SCARED YOU MIGHT BECOME WORSE THAN THEM WITH ALL THESE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS BOTTLED UP INSIDE YOU...
YOU wanna shout at them...
Because they don't listen and just keep pointing out that they are in the right position, that's what they think anyway, as i mentioned a bunch of hypocrites.
YOU wanna LEAVE this goddamn hell of a place, because you're starting to become EVIL...
you feel that if you don't control you're anger you'll become a monster worse than them
you don't know how to let this things out, because every move you move they only point out the bad things and your mistakes..
She asked you why you keep yourself in your room and not go out to clean the kitchen or something, when the actual happening is you DO go out to clean wherever you think that is needed cleaning and clean it.. Not just when THEY are there..
because every time they are there,.. there going to talk and if they are going to talk it will be either of these things:
YOU NOT DOING GOOD ENOUGH
YOUR MISTAKES AND 'WHAT THEY THINK YOU MUST DO' BECAUSE THEY THINK THAT IS RIGHT
YOU BEING STUBBORN AND NOT LISTENING TO THEM 'whenever hippocrasy is being preached'
REASONS WHY YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO THEM:
They are hypocrites who think what they do is right (i just put the meaning of a hypocrite)
They don't listen anyway because they have their own Hippocratic beliefs
You don't want to add fuel to the fire, because you know if you say something that hits them in the gut. They're not going to accept it and it just backfire, they're going to give reasons that justifies their selves in their mindset.
You don't want to boil up in anger
