I started to lean in... But instead I fell in his chest. "I-I'm sorry. .." He kissed my forehead. "I'm sorry I never noticed..." I felt tears roll down my face. Then I noticed he was crying too. "I've gone through the same thing..." I was shocked of what he had just said... "W-what??.." I asked making sure I heard him right. "I used to cut my legs.. So no one could see them.." I hugged him tighter. How did I not notice? He was going through a hard time and I could have helped him, but I didn't know. It seemed like his life was perfect, he had a loving family, a beautiful girlfriend, well. Not anymore... and he was Internet famous, what could he be going through...? "W-why?.. What happened to make you..?" I paused as I noticed his eyes were watering even more than before... "I felt like no one cared. But then I met you..and Phil.. You guys saved me.." He smiled faintly. "I-I I never really thought you actually liked me..." I gave a shy look as I looked down.." As a friend..." I said quickly..." I have always liked you.. As a friend..." My eyes started watering again. "Also. Another reason I cut.. For a while, I was..questioning my.. Sexuality..." I gave a confused look.. "W-what? You've had so many girlfriends!" "Ya but. Phil.. He was always just.. An exception..." I was surprised.. Dan? Gay..?
"So.., you're.. Gay..? " I asked quietly. "No. For a while I thought I was bisexual. But Phil wasn't gay nor bi. So I decided that I love Phil. Just not. That way anymore... I never told Phil.. So please, don't say anything.." He asked with his eyes filled with tears. "I would never tell a soul. And even if you were gay I would not love you any less... Maybe even more." I smiled giving a faint giggle. "Come here." I grabbed him and pulled him into me. Getting as close to him as possible. "So.. Are you suicidal too...?" My heart sank. I couldn't tell him the truth.. "No..." I say quickly and quietly, almost quiet enough that no one could here me.. I looked down. He grabbed my hands, making me look into his eyes.. His Goddamn gorgeous chocolate eyes... "You can tell me anything.." I looked up at him with my big blue eyes.."no..." Repeating again. Still lying.. I knew he wouldn't believe me.. But surprisingly.. He said "ok.. Just.. Tell me next time.. " I nodded. But, I honestly didn't want to tell him. Cutting was my outlet from everything, everyone. I cut almost every night. And I probably was going to tonight. Considering I lied to him about not being suicidal.
A/N)) Hai. its mah few first attempts at writing...:)Vote and comment for more:D
