{Kay, just want to say sorry for how hideously long this is! ;) Hope you like it anyway! Done at 3am in the morning so probably not quality stuff... ;) }
FRIENDSHIP
01.
we've been friends since forever
since mudpies
and crayons
and bubble blowers
and your fluffy rabbit Toby
since sunny afternoons
and face paint
and stolen cookies
and dad's new camera
since fireworks
and truth-or-dare
and tents in the garden
and jumping in the river
since staying up too late
and stealing vodka from the cupboard
and pranks on the headmaster
and one-word phrases scratched on to desktops
[but we've changed since then
and the people we thought we'd be
aren't the same as the people
we are]
02.
so you're having fun playing troublemaker
while the teacher watches
eyes full of regret and upset
and i'm the one
who get's you out of trouble
[i'm the one]
03.
i'm wondering how we can be so different
so now we're sweet seventeen
and you're still the same
getting yourself into shit while
i'm still bailing you out
[i'm still the one]
04.
you say you don't look back, because you might fall
but i'm living in the past
holding onto those memories of you
before
before now, when
you turn up at my house at one o clock a.m.
completely smashed
two black eyes
puppy dog eyes
and what do you expect me to do?
[but you expect me to look after you now
because i'm the only one who will]
05.
and i want to hold onto those shining memories
of childhood
our easy friendship
before it becomes wiped out by
the smell of alcohol on your breath
that haunted insomniac look
that once-handsome face
[i pretend i can't see how bad you're getting
and in my mind, i cover your bruised face
with an image of your grinning
six-year-old self]
06.
we grow up
and i still seem to be looking after you
at the prime of my life and ready to start living
right?
but no
because you're beginning to realize how far you've fallen
into the madness
[and i'm starting to wish
i'd made myself see you for what you are
wish i'd done something sooner]
07.
and now i stare at the stars
like they can shed any light on this
massive balls of fire burning up in space
and i think they can make things right?
[maybe madness is contagious]
08.
our eighteenth birthdays pass
still i stare blankly at the sky
and think.
i wonder if you'll ever stop replacing oxygen with drinks
and i hope
[i hope that maybe, just maybe
you will]
09.
you finally tells me to look at you, to really look at you
because you've turned into a fucking monster
"i am looking," I say, peering into your red-rimmed swollen eyes
"and I only see my friend."
