Harry Styles Imagines

Balcony

"Who would you want to lose your virginity to?" He asked cocking his eyebrows as he stuffed the cushion behind him. I sat cross legged in front of him, on my turquoise bed cover.

I thought about his question. I wouldn't lose it to just anyone. I wasn't like him.

"Idk a specific person," I lied. "But I would want to be able not to regret it. Someone i love, who loves me." I answered gazing off into the distance.

"Aw, you're such a cutie momo." He cooed, placing my face in his large hands. I swatted his hands off of me and got off the bed but he yanked me back onto it.

"Don't leave, let's...talk."

I rolled my eyes but sat down anyway, fiddling with my fingers since my phone was currently flat.

"So, I've got a date tonight and-"

"I don't care." I retorted. It was always like this, he would tell me about all his dates and the girl he would love to bang but I really didn't need to hear all that.

"Momo, stop. Anyway, I've got a date and I need you to cover for me since I'm still grounded." He asked staring deeply at me. I couldn't help but admire his eyes, he was practically perfect in every way. Dimples, green eyes, plump lips, chiseled cheek bones; perfect. And then there was me who just got out of puberty so I was still a hot mess.

"Mo?" I shook my head and focused back on what he was saying.

"I'm not covering for you again, the fourth time this week. If your mum finds out you're not actually studying at my place she'll hate me and forbid me from ever seeing you again." I retorted. "So no."

He sighed pushed me down so I was laying on my back. He came above me and laid his head on my tummy. I attempted to push him off but that wasn't happening.

"Please, I really like this girl. She's just so pretty, funny, talented, and she's a great listener." He beamed in excitement which immediately turned my mood down.

Of course, every other girl he meets is perfect...but me. I wish I was all those girls he went on dates with. I wish I was the one who he constantly raved about, I wish he knew.

"Okay,"

"Please Mo, I- wait, did you just say okay?"

"Yeah,"

He shot up off of my tummy and hugged me in excitement whilst I was still laying down but instead of the usual fake smile I gave him, I remained frowning.

"Hey, you okay?"

"mhm."

"You don't sound o-"

"I'm fine...just...go get ready, I'll be there soon." I pretended to be okay, as usual. He smiled at me once more and kissed my forehead, heading for the balcony to get to his room. I closed the curtain after him and laid on my bed, tears beginning to spill.

"Oh, don't do this to yourself. If he doesn't see what he's missing out on there's he's not worth your precious tears." My older sister comforted as she entered the room, softlypatting my back. I continued to cry but soon decided to stop.

"I just..." I sat up looking at her. She pulled me in to a side hug and laid me there. "It hurts whenever he raves about all the girls he likes, and I know my name will just never pop up. I can't bear to just be his 'best friend' for the rest of my life, I can't."

"I know sweetie, but it will get better. I know you love him and he loves you too. It would break him if you two were no longer friends." She stated. Of course she was right, she had been in my situation before when she was 16.

"Yeah, I would too." I sighed. I laid in her arms for a few seconds before seconding I should probably go before he thought I wasn't coming.

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Harry's POV

I was getting ready to jump back into her balcony to see if she was coming or not but I paused when I heard her sad voice talking with her sister.

"It hurts whenever he raves about all the girls he likes, and I know my name will just never pop up. I can't bear to just be his 'best friend' for the rest of my life, I can't." At first I was confused as to whom she was talking about but it became clearly obvious it was about me.

She liked me? And she had never told me. All this time I'd been-

I stood by my balcony arms folded as I heard her footsteps. She unravelled the curtain and expected to the see just the other end by instead she was faced with an angry looking me.

"Um...what a-are you doing, you're s-supposed it be getting dressed..." She stuttered which just made me even angrier.

"Oh please, cut the crap Mo. What was all that about? The conversation you just had with Liz?"

I could tell she immediately got nervous at my statement. She knew I knew.

"What conversat-"

"How long has this been going on for?" I asked as I stepped over into her balcony and into the room. I walked closer to stand infront of her. "How long have you been crying to yourself about me?"

"Har-"

"Don't. Answer my question first. How long?"

She sighed and rubbed her hip in nerve, like she always did when she was nervous.

"...6 years."

"6...6 freaking years Mo! You have been hiding this from me for 6 years!"

"Yes okay!" She shouted back, obviously fed up with my shouting. "I really don't understand why you're angry at me."

"The day that I kissed you, when we were 15, 3 years ago, I asked if you liked me and you straight up said no and lied to my face. Do you realise how devastated I was and now- I can't believe you. I've got a date I need to get ready for." I mumbled before turning to leave.

It wasn't fair to be angry at her but this was my feelings on the line too. I was heartbroken, for months on end.

"Wait, please...don't go," she begged. I stopped and hung my head low. I couldn't do this right now. "Please, I can't take it anymore. I need to know...do you still have feelings for me?"

I remained silent. Of course I still had feelings for her, I was in love with her, but my arrogance got the best of me. I wasn't going to tell her that I was in love with her. Not yet at least.

"...No, I've moved on...and you should too." I spat, before I stepped back into my balcony and slammed the doors behind me.

What have I just done? Did I really just blow her off when I had been dreaming about this day for years. Did I really do that.

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