This feeling of insanity
Is close behind devouring
My eyes not blind to the images you send
But my soul unwilling, cowering
Yesterday you called to trust
My heart fell open to what you had to say
“Do not be afraid for I am with you”
Words of comfort banned dismay
Yet still my head does not give way
To things that are left unsaid
My mind, full of questions
All for the one who bled
Fear of the future has left me blind
I’m contradicting everything
I don’t understand what you called me to
In life we can be anything
I’m not the one for these people
I cannot Sheppard a flock
My role in life cannot be this
Once I step off that dock
Life has begun to change me
Mould me into you way
Childhood left on the road behind
Motivation gone astray
Youth pastor cannot be my calling
It’s just not in me for that stand
I cannot guide the generation
Of ones that you command
I am only the messenger
The support of your chosen few
When you show me all your will
It’s them that will follow you
My use will become less
As they are brought to their reason
When the 12 are chosen
That shall be the end of my season
