muted feelings

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only a few left oh and this book is going to have alternate endings the real one and then the therapy payment

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only a few left
oh and this book is going to have alternate endings the real one and then the therapy payment


3rd person pov

y/n rolled over to her back looking up at the ceiling fan. her chest started to feel heavy and she a nervous feeling settled inside her. That became all she could focus on and she started panicking. over what she thought.

Her breathing became shallow and she sat up in bed holding her shirt collar. She was fumbling over her words as she tried to get up. Trying to speak her words since her brain was going a million miles an hour. She closed her eyes and fell to a ball by her bed.

She wanted to go to lizzie but didn't think she could make it. she digs her nails into her legs her head between her knees. It felt like the world was caving in around her as the pressure grew on her chest. She was crying and visibly shaking.

None of the strategies lizzie had taught her were working, not that she could recall them all at a time like this anyway. The pain in her legs calmed her down as she could focus on that instead. She knew that wasn't a good way to think about it. but it works.

She started to calm down resting her hands on her thighs instead. Taking deep breaths. Even though they were shaky the oxygen was needed. She reached beside her grabbing the headphones she had taken off in order to focus.

She slipped them over her head again listening to the music to relax more. Her heart was still pounding in her ears but the music drowned it out. she got some messages from someone but ignored them.

She turned her phone off not being able to bring herself to have a conversation and rests her head back on the bed behind her.

y/n stood up going to have a shower to wash away the remaining bad feeling. letting the scorching water run down her body she. After settling in bed again a warm hoodie, thick blankets and again her headphones she felt safe again. Although the actor couldn't fall asleep for a few more hours she managed to get some sleep before the sun came up.

She woke up to a knock at her door and her mum walking in. "good morning sweetheart" she said quietly walking over to place a hand on y/ns back. The teenager rolled over looking at her mum through hooded eyes


Lizzies pov

When she turned over I noticed her tearstained face and raw red eyes. "whats happened" I asked her as she was clearly struggling with something before. Why didn't she come get me.

She just shrugged rubbing her eyes and sitting up. "I don't know" she said pulling the covers back and coming closer to me for a hug. I wrap my arms around her tightly as she lets out a breath tucking her head in my neck. "what does it feel like?"

"I don't know, like I cant breathe" she whispered gripping onto my shirt. I pulled back and held her face in my hands. I kissed her forehead and brought her back in for a hug for as long as she needs. eventually she pulls back taking a deep breath and looking up at me. she smiled said good morning and stood up. we went downstairs for breakfast. She stayed by my side holding my hand as we went around the buffet.

We sat down with the others that had started to show up. y/n was quiet and everyone thought she was just tired. She was as close as she could be to me quietly staring ahead. I pushed her pancake closer and she looked at me briefly before cutting it up to eat in small bites.

After breakfast we got changed ready for the 4 interviews we had today. It was going to be long.


3rd person pov

The day passed in a blur. y/n was zoned out all day, headphones on or around her neck. She doesn't even understand where this feeling came from, she was doing so good for so long. Now she doesn't feel anything.

She was zoned out at the end of the last interview, it was just her and lizzie as it was a pair thing. "sorry" she said once lizzie had nudged her since she didn't respond.

"what brand are your headphones, you've been seen with them all around lately" the interviewer asked.  She looked to lizzie since she bought them and the latter spoke for her.

"lizzie got them for my birthday a while back, I use them every day" that was the longest sentence she had said all day. After a bit more the interview sums up and y/n leans back in the couch fully. Glad cameras were off for the day.

but ofcourse the pair left the building only to be swarmed by paparazzi. She felt someone grab her headphones but she spun around to snatch them back. She looked the guy up and down before getting into their car. it was just a guy trying to get her attention. The driver drove off and she went back to staring ahead. 

The rest of the day was on auto pilot.

Lizzie didn't leave y/n to herself tonight, inviting her to stay in her room instead. The teen took her up on the offer settling in bed. As the latter turned on a movie. It was wall-e. no hard to follow dialogue just something simple to watch. After lizzie got in bed y/n rested against her side and the woman wrapped an arm around her. She pulled her jumper over her hands watching the movie in peace.

she fell asleep shortly after that.


a/n 

this was shit, i wrote it in 3 different classes today

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