I've become one with darkness and the darkness become one with this world.
I don't really remember when it all happened, even the last time I saw the world so colorful.
I was roaming this wide space, circling around aimlessly.
I have never been free from these lucid nightmares.
I never felt the warmth, I am chained by this cold.
Empty.
Meaningless.
Cruelty.
Useless.
I lost track of time.
I am stuck but I'm fine.
I am used to these kinds of thoughts, Drilling in my mind.
Oh, how I wish someone was here suffering with me.
All eternity, I wish for serenity.
I hope it'll end.
I never learned to grow.
All I knew is to fall.
Never learned to be brave and play with it along.
I was playing with this world filled with sorrow.
It fills me in with cowardice.
I am scared.
I am tired.
I am dead.
Even death.
has left me.
"World! Please end me, can't you see I'm suffering for so long."
I screamed filled with anger even when I knew it won't hear me.
"I cried and suffered for all eternity, isn't this enough?"
I knelt down and begged.
"Please! Please!"
I punched the ground till my fingers broke and shed blood.
"Hear me.. Feel me.."
I clenched my teeth.
I am filled with rage.
I am filled with hatred.
I am filled with anguish.
"I am in pain can't you see?.."
I whispered.
"arrrrrgh."
The pain in my hands sank in and suddenly my heart felt like it's tearing into pieces.
I passed out.
A few years passed, I opened my eyes.
Darkness filled my vision.
Coldness filled my body.
I am healed,
but the pain in my heart remains.
Nothing new and nothing changes, yet here we go again.
I walked longer than before, Aimlessly.
But there's a new feeling in my heart.
I feel nervous.
I feel hope.
I feel more desperate.
I ran and ran, so fast.
I chased my breath after breath.
Step by step the more intense this feelings become.
"huff, huff"
Far from the distance I saw.
"A light!"
Even thought it was so dim I still see it in this pitch black darkness.
I felt happy while running towards this fragment of light.
