Maybe there's a reason AAP (Trilogy#2)

Chapter 7 "Open up"

Weeks passed and I'm still miserable, I couldn't take my mom's word, I had suicidal thoughts when I was still a child, and I know ava would think the same thing, she's tired from everything, and she doesn't deserve that. Only if I could make a deal with God and get him to swap out places, I would gladly accept your situation.

"Trid?" I heard Akiesha's voice kaya nag madali akong punasan ang luha ko at binuksan ang pinto.

"Bakit kayo Nandito?" Akala ko ay si Akiesha lang ang nandito pero si Gill rin pala.

"Hindi ka kasi nag s-seen sa gc eh, kaya nag pahatid kami rito" Sabi ni Akiesha.

"You cried?" Gill Ask.

"No" I answer her. "Pasok na kayo, sorry magulo" Sabi ko.

"What happened?" Akiesha ask, animo'y alam na alam niya kapag may nangyari sa akin, makes me want to cry.

"Wala, walang nangyari" I tried to add up a laugh but it just sounds weird because it was a force laugh.

"Nasanay ka nang ihandle Yung sadness and problems mo mag isa noon, Pero Nandito na kami, you can open up whenever you want and we'll listen." Gill Said, nakakapanibago dahil ngayon lang siya nag seryoso sa usapan.

"Trid look at me, Always remember na, Hindi ka nakaka bother nang iba, Hindi ka oa, Hindi ka annoying, Hindi ka maarte o ano, You are valid, you can feel whatever you are feeling right now because you have feelings" Akiesha joined the conversation, now I'm sure I want to cry.

"Kinaya ko naman dati ah? Tsaka Wala naman akong Pinag sabihan noon, pero kinaya ko, kaya ko rin dapat ngayon." Sabi ko at pinipigilan umiyak.

"Well it doesn't have to be like that all the time. You have me, You have us" Gill said which made my cry.

Pilit kong pinupunasan ang luha ko pero pinipigilan nila ako.

"Let it out, Remember that crying doesn't make you less of a person. It doesn't make you weak, in fact, it just proves that strong cause you've been able to express what you really feel inside" Akiesha said.

"I really feel better now, I promise I won't cry again, I'll just cry if the pain is too much to handle" Sabi ko at bahagyang tumawa.

"Oh shut it, Lahat naman umiiyak kasi may nararamdaman either you're happy or sad" Gill said.

We stayed there talking about adjusting to their school, as expected mommy and daddy's not around kaya hanggang 7 pm sila rito.

"It's already 7 na Pala!" Gill suddenly said.

"Call us ah? I won't expect you to call kaya kami ang tatawag Sayo, kapag Hindi ko sumagot or nag seen pupunta ulit kami Dito" Pabirong pag babanta sa akin ni Akiesha kaya tumawa ako at tumango.

"Yeah, lowbat siguro phone ko" Pag dadahilan ko.

When they left, I felt empty again but it's lighter now, I could be better, I should be better.

Monday comes and now I'm at school waiting for the announcement, but dude, principal says starting from now sa stage na raw mag f-flag ceremony at Hindi na sa kanya kanyang room dahil tapos na raw iyong pinagawang tambayan for musician student kapag may break time, para Samin Pala ah?

Siguro pinapunta lang kami sa stage para pag pawisan, grabe.

Nang Maka balik na kami sa room ay pumasok Yung teacher namin sa music room.

"Okay, who wants to volunteer to join us? By the way Astrid, congratulations you're in!" Ma'am Lorenel said which made the whole class clapped and cheer for me.

"Yes hija?"

"Gusto ko pong sumali, I want to beat someone" Mirabelle said.

"Ohh, Beat someone? Oh honey I'm sure that someone is great? Isn't she?" Sabi niya at tumingin sakin, bakit? Ako ba Ang gusto niyang talunin? As if.