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What's going on?
Where am I?
I can't remember where I am.
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I'm snapped out of my deep thoughts at the sound of Caesar's voice. "Are you okay?" He asks me. The whole audience staring at me and I suddenly remember where I am. The interview that the victors do right after the games. I was put into a 'babydoll dress', at least that's what Ms. Tigris called it, I was in all white like they were painting me as this innocent angel. I hated it. The question Caesar asked me alone infuriated me. "Am I okay? Am I okay?! Do I look okay?!" I snapped.
Caesar looks at me a little taken aback and baffled. "I was put into a massacre. I watched my brother and my friend die right before my eyes. I watched a boy get crushed to death. I killed someone just to stay alive! So am I okay? No! I'm not okay!" I was done playing along with these sick games just to keep myself alive. Well I won. So I don't need to play along anymore.
I stood up, causing Caesar to flinch a bit. "I want to go." I state. "But your interview isn't over yet." He says. "I don't care. Get me out of here now." I stand my ground. Caesar scrambles to try and end the interview as smoothly as he could. "W-Well folk looks like-" I didn't let him finish before I walk out.
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"What were you thinking?! Walking out like that?! How rude can you be?!" Stella reprimanded me. "How could you be encouraging this?! Why would I want people asking me how I'm doing when they watched what I went through. If anything they're the ones being rude!" I scream back at her.
We were currently on the train heading back to district 4. I don't remember much of what happened after the interview, everything's just a bit of a blur. Stella continues to yell at me but I just block out her voice. I'm not doing this. I stood up and walk out heading to the back of the train with the big dome window. I sit on the sofa looking out the window. We still weren't out of the capitol so there wasn't much to look at.
I was so tired. I wanted to sleep but I couldn't. No matter how hard I tried. Every time I closed my eyes I saw them. Liam and Wes. While I was in the sterile white room I had allowed myself to relax and it was like I could still feel their blood covering me. So even relaxing was out of the picture. I wanted to cry so bad but since we were still in the capitol there were still people watching.
I heard the door opening but continued to look outside. If it was Stella coming to reprimand me again I wasn't going to deal with it. Footsteps made their way to me and I felt the sofa sink in. I look over and meet Finnick's gaze. "Hey." He says in barely a whisper. "Hey." I say back and turn back to the window. It stays quiet for a while. The only noise being the train moving. "Is this why you stopped talking to me?" I ask, finally. I feel his gaze on me as he speaks. "What do you mean?" "I mean," I turn back over to look at him, "did you stop talking to me because I wouldn't have been able to understand your trauma?" I clarify. "What? No I-" He bites his lip, stopping himself. "Then what was it Finnick. Because I tried to talk to you every single day and I always put it off as 'he's just getting used to being back', 'he just needs some time', but then the next year you go off to be a mentor, and I sat in front of that tv, basically glued to it just to catch a glimpse of you. I see you talk to the tributes with ease and even going out of your way to form a relationship with one of them knowing the chances of them returning are very slim. And when you come back..." I was starting to tear up now, the edge of the capitol coming into sight, "You and her are attached to the hip like we were so I just came to the conclusion, 'it's a trauma bond, something I could never understand'."
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FanfictionArt belongs to meyoco_ on Twitter A girl from the fishing district who is desperately in love with her best friend and the capital heart throb. What happens after she gets reaped in the 68th hunger games at the age of 17. Forced to fight to the deat...