Hockey Imagines

Stick Season- Mark Estapa

Based on Stick Season by Noah Kahan

As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined
You must have had yourself a change of heart like
Halfway through the drive
Because your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign
Kept on drivin' straight and left our future to the right

    "Millie? Are you there?" I asked her worriedly. Her voice was cut off, and the phone call ended. I tracked her location, and she didn't take the normal exit to my road. I felt betrayed, I felt played, I felt so many emotions, and I didn't know how to cope with it. We were only 19 when we started dating, and after two years, she threw everything away.

I hated her

But I couldn't. A part of me still loved her, even after 6 months after she left me.

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks
And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed
And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim
I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas

    Christmas was a few weeks away, and I had been a complete mess: drinking after practices or games. I had seen her brother and mom at our games, and they ignored me, never bothering to ask what happened.

And I'll dream each night of some version of you
That I might not have, but I did not lose
Now your tire tracks and one pair of shoes
And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do

Dreams.

     She had been popping up in dreams, causing scenarios that could've happened, but she could never skate her way out of my brain no matter how hard I tried to forget about her. Luke had been keeping me busy and spending time with me more. He had gone through the same thing, and talked to me about it. Soon after, the pain of her leaving me was gone, and I stopped doing the habits of her leaving me had caused.

Oh, that'll have to do
My other half was you
I hope this pain's just passin' through
But I doubt it

     Soon after, she decided to 'pop' back into my life after a year.

WC: 382

It's short, I know