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I was running fast and faster i didn't knew what I was doing but knew I was running away from a bundle of responsibility i was caring alone all this year's but now I couldn't take it anymore I want to just get away from all this and start a new life .. but the question is how .. not educated not knowing any basic skill about anything .. i was a useless part of something even I didn't knew about

I was going crazy day by day and i new that .. all I want is to break down into million pieces and let go the boundary I am holding but I can't .. i would never be able to do that .. holding up so much made me a stone .. a stone which wouldn't break  even after poring water drops daily or the rope sliding it .. i just knew I had lost the emotions in myself and i don't tend to find them. Not anymore  .. can't waste my time on shity thinks now can i

"It's the last stop I hope you wanna go down now" the conductor looked at me and said .. i looked up into his eyes and shivered everything was scary even his eyes .

I jolted up from my seat and ran away .... AGAIN !

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I can't run anymore till when .. till how long .. till were .. is their any end . Will I ever see the end
I was sitting down on this buss stop for a quit long time now. I have to get up and keep going and i have to keep all the thoughts apart i have to be strong. More strong!  .. no o have to be the one now .. no one is their to rescue you no one is the knight of anyone's life

If you are strong. People willingly helps You. People respect you. .. if you are not. People treat you like shit
And belive me I have experienced both

Stand up you have to! Crying at your misery is not the solution. Cries are for wear!

I walked up to the near by colony seeing any house or room for rent .. it looks like a slump area but who cares if I find my self happy being poor .. it's worth it right .. or i was living like a slave .. I am a slave .

I see a house
Knocked a door and a very old lady answered

"Yes my dear" she said .. and then she looked at me .. with those judging eyes
"Hello madam by any chance do you have a room for rent "

"I do but can you afford it? " she looked at me with those eyes again
I looked at her and suddenly her eyes softened a bit

"Was not questioning your ability dear .. just asking so you don't have any problem. You know here are many people who wants sympathy for their looks but looking at you .. i do feel sorry for what happened and I won't ask about it don't worry."

She felt sorry why ? Do I look that shity . Was misery written all over my face

"How much is it ?" I asked with a stone face

"400$" she replied softly
"2months in 400$" she smiled at me.

I know you may feel it's not too much .. but for me it is .. it's a lot i own only 600$ right now .. this is the only money I am left with and some belongings

"Yes mam, can I have the room please." I said .. she smiled a bit and let me to the second floor
The stairs were from outside and i had my whole privacy.

"This is your room now" she showed me a small room attached to a small kitchen and bathroom .. it is small but seems good and cosy.. I felt good

"Thank you mam"

We did some paper work for the rented place and i was given this room for a while all for myself .
I smiled .. little by little .. I am taking steps
Next thing I have to do is find a job .. but who .. who the hell will employ a uneducated, unskilled and inexperienced person
But let's just try .. what's wrong in that thinking about the next day I jumped into the deep dark slumber of mine .. may be it was tiredness of the travel .. or was it tiredness of all those lonely years ?

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My body felt stiff and head ached like crazy I could feel my legs swollen and impossible to move I knew being weak is not an option for me. I stood up to fall again my stomach growled. Well when was the last time I had a meal? Probably, 2 days ago.

I washed up cleaning up my mud filled body and ran down

"400$ for 2 month?? Women have you lost your mind?! Don't you remember inflation and high price of things? And what is this a 3rd bowl of soup for whom?" A elderly men voice echoed in the veranda of the house

"The poor girl looked sick. I could see she had no place to go to it's not bad after all. We will have a child's company right?" The old lady asked in assurance.

"Child?? How old is she? "
"She looked somewhere 18 or 19?"

"I am 19 aunty"
The elderly men turned around with his strict eyes
That soon softened up. He looked at his wife all teary.

"So that's why!"
He turned to me and looked dead into my eyes eyes turning solid again
"Food for u is ready have it and find a job to work!" He said strictly making sure he looked scary in his teary posture.

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|Written on- 13 dec 2023   |
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