IVY
Opening my eyes proved to be harder than expected. My eyelids were heavy, and my head was sore from the amount of alcohol I drank. The momentary memory of tequila made my stomach twist and clench. I hated myself for how reckless I had been. Regret was slowly beginning to seep back into my consciousness, along with the disappointment that I once again succumbed to this weakness over Rhys.
I was embarrassed at how loose I had been with my actions and tongue. Last night, I slowly lost myself to that teenage girl, vying for Rhys Wyatt's attention. I rolled over and bit down on my blanket to let out a muffled cry. What the hell was wrong with me? I had practically begged him to kiss me, just like I did all those years ago.
Blaine's face flashed in my mind, and I felt like I was going to throw up. My careless actions would ruin their entire family if he ever found out. He'd hate me. Or worse, he'd hate Rhys. I couldn't let that happen. There was no way I could even begin to tell Blaine about that kiss. That hot, mouthwatering kiss that had never once felt like that in all the years I'd been with him. I shook away the memory and convinced myself there was no need to tell Blaine because it would never happen again.
What Blaine didn't know wouldn't hurt him.
I hugged my pillow and watched the clock on my wall tick away. I dreaded getting out of bed for my shift. I did not want to walk downstairs and face Rhys. I could hear him in the kitchen and the sizzle of a frying pan and the drip of a coffee pot. Plus, I couldn't fathom moving just yet. My head was still pounding. I felt nauseous, and I smelled like a brewery.
When my phone started ringing, I fished for it on the edge of my nightstand. The sound was murdering my ears. I prayed it wasn't Blaine calling. There was no way I could look or talk to him right now. I was a guilty mess.
Shit.
It was Blaine.
A pang of guilt coursed through me. I sucked in a raged course of air and clicked to his call on FaceTime. He finally appeared on my screen. His hair was a wild mess, dark purple circles hung under his eyes, and he wore a frown. He looked like he hadn't slept in days. I had a sick feeling that my avoiding him had something to do with it. I couldn't help but stiffen at this observation.
"Fuck, baby. I know you asked for space," he blew a ragged breath and ran his hand through his matted hair. "But I needed to hear your voice and see your face. I am so mad at myself for not telling you about Amy. I'm begging you to please let me back in, Ivy. Please don't end us."
Unshed tears threatened my eyes, and I swallowed the lump in my throat. Seeing him so upset pained me. I wanted to reply, but I was afraid of what would come out of my mouth, so I remained silent. Blaine was safe. He loved me. What had I done?
"Ivy? Are you going to answer me?"
I blinked as his words brought me back to reality.
"Blaine, I am not going to end us," I assured him.
He finally smiled. "Then why did you need space? Are you having doubts about us?"
My stomach hollowed out as I realized it was all my fault he worried about our relationship. I was being distant. I knew Blaine would never intentionally hurt me. He wasn't the problem. I was. I had kissed his brother.
"No, Blaine, I am not ending us," I sighed. "I was just so angry. Mostly at myself."
His eyes widened. "What? Why? I am the one who fucked up. Not you."
"You really should have told me about Amy, but I was also wrong for not telling you Rhys was staying at the ranch. I fucked up too. I am no better, and I'm sorry. It's you who should be mad at me." I held a steady gaze with him through the screen, and he cocked his head to the side, studying me. I wanted so desperately to tell him I kissed Rhys; I wanted to come clean; I did...but I couldn't bring myself to do it.
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RomanceRhys Wyatt is as arrogant as he is beautiful, and Ivy Bishop has been infatuated with him forever. The night Ivy makes her move, it ends horribly, leaving her utterly heartbroken. Three years later, Ivy is dating Blaine Wyatt; Rhys's loving and tend...