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by ___NiQ

by ___NiQ

Why can't I shake you is what I ask myself.
It's 2 am and I'm up thinking
Reminiscing.
About US at 2 am.
The times we had , the times we were..
The times that were so terrifying...The times that were filled with pure raw uncut - well you know..
I see you in the back of my mind whenever I feel the need.
The intimacy you hold is something that controls me.
It terrifies me to see you.
When I hear your voice I'm instantly weakened.
I'm angry bc I know what's to come .
I have to keep my guard up , can't make this next move go wrong.
It's toxic I know I still want you one last time..
But I'm not sure I Can shake you..
That's why I gotta pretend like I don't want you around..
Wish you understood me more.
But Shit it's hard to say..
I never speak on my emotions and hurting you not apart of the plan..