11/9/2023
Sometimes I feel anxious and nauseous when I'm sitting alone at table. I feel like everyone is staring at me deep into my soul. I don't have any closes friends in this school, so I often eat alone or just didn't eat at all. It's not hard but it doesn't mean I'm comfortable either. I feel like I take too much space for one table, and people will look at me like I'm a weirdo, I feel nauseous and nervous. I feel deep hatred in me whenever I caught their gaze lingering on me, I feel mad and upset. I don't want them staring at me, I don't want anyone to watch me eat, watch me feeling depressed, watch me sitting alone at one table thinking they're better than me because they have friends and I don't. I want them to fuck off and let me do my things. I usually spends my time alone at certain crowded places so I won't feel like I'm taking one big space for myself, even though I sometimes hated crowded room, I hate physical touches with someone I don't know. I have to anyway, just so I can fit in, just so they won't stares at me anymore.
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Non-FictionThis is just a random book that I decide to write one day. This book is about Viclyn. Her daily life is boring, dull and nothing more but empty existence towards others. This book is about her life in college. Semester 1 year 1 - 2023 Semester 2 ye...
