After bill drove off last week I've noticed how bored I am now. With bill I could talk for hours on end and yeah I can do that with my other friends it's just me and bill had so many new things to talk about it's just different...
Even while I'm working I feel myself feel even more miserable. I saw some people post some photos of tokio hotel's concerts all over the world for about 1 month before I felt jealous.
Because they did the same thing at every show. One lucky person would get to meet them. I just felt deep down tokio hotel will meet someone funnier and nicer and maybe even cuter then me and full on ghost me.
I felt my stomach churn as I thought even after the tour bill would stop talking to me completely. I started to feel really anxious and I told my manager I couldn't work for the rest of the day. I rushed all the way home before collapsing on my bed.
I held onto my pillow tight feeling the warm tears fall freely. I've only talked to bill twice since he's left. I know he's busy but...I don't know this is all confusing
Why do I feel like this? Why do I even care if he talks to me? I shouldn't feel like this just because he's like a celebrity.
I felt my phone buzz and I grabbed it before looking at who was calling me. Well fuck me sideways it's just who I was talking about.
I wiped my tears and answered slowly. "Hello?" My voice a bit cracked
"Hey [name] I just wanted to tell you..." bill said his voice sounding at bit different over the phone
Please some say anything bad please!
"We only have about a couple weeks till the tour is over so...what I'm trying to say is.." bill said before I could hear his phone being taken by Tom
"What my little brother is trying to say is he wants to see you after the tour is over." Tom said giving back the phone to bill
"Yes that is what I was going to say." Bill said sounding at bit annoyed
"Before I was interrupted..so what do you say [name]?"
I thought for a second. A part of me wanted to say no just out of anger but another part of me wanted to see bill. "Yes I want to see." I said my voice monotone.
"[name]? Are you feeling okay? You seem sad..." bill said his worries filling the phone
"Yeah I'm fine just tired...listen I'll tell you when we see each other how about it?" I said putting some emotion into my voice
"Sure! Oh...sorry I've got to go now but I promise I'll call you later." Bill said before I could respond and hung up.
I gritted my teeth before slamming my phone shut. He never calls back. I turned on my tv and tried to calm down and relax before I saw a Channel that was interviewing tokio hotel.
I wanted to skip it but my finger froze over the button as I watched. "So you guys have been on tour for about 5 months and you've met quite at bit of fans. Did you like the choice to let a fan of your meet you guys?" The interviewer said pointing the microphone to the band
"Uh well I mean some time I regret it because some of the fans are kinda crazy when they meet us and everything but we do like meeting our fans." Bill said smiling a bit
I didn't know who he was talking about he even though he most likely wasn't talking about me there was a chance he was. I slam down the off button and slam my face into my pillows
why is he making me so angry. Am I jealous? Am I missing him I have no idea. Why do I miss him? We weren't that close?
Is this the feeling of missing someone? What is wrong with me? I sighed deep into my pillows before slowly drifting off.
When I woke up I was not in my room. I looked around and started to walk around. It was completely different the layout the color of the walls everything wasn't right.
No one was here.
I ran to the door but I couldn't open. I grabbed a book to try and smash the windows. They didn't even crack. I grab the side table to start breaking the window but everything moved in slow motion.
The TV then turned on making me flinch. I turned to look at it. Someone was interviewing bill on the tv. I took a seat on a couch that wasn't mine.
"So tell me how is it like to be now dating a super star?" The interviewer said to bill shoving the microphone in his face
It then panned to a girl who's face was distorted. She was clinging onto his arm as he then started to talk in gibberish before he kissed her on the lips.
After he did that he just stared at the camera. I felt like I was being watched threw the tv. I turned around looking as if someone was behind me.
The TV then started to loudly play out static filling up the entire room with the noise. I covered my ears but that didn't help.
I then woke up flinging myself off my pillows and breathing deep. I realized my TV was the one to blame. I don't even remember turning it back on.
I click on the power button again and sighing as I rubbed my hand on the bridge of my nose.
"Shit...this is going to be harder then I thought." I said before getting up from my bed. I checked the time and I was asleep for almost 2 hours.
My mom was making dinner when I walked downstairs. "Oh honey you got a call from a very nice man who wanted to make sure you okay." She said giving me a smile
I raised a brow. "Who?" I asked placing a hand on the counter
"He said his name was Tom? Apparently he's your friends brother and just wanted to make sure you were doing okay." She said before putting dinner in the over to Finish cooking .
Now my first thought was how the hell did he he get my house phone. Did I give him the number? "Why was he asking if I was okay?" I asked my brain still a bit fuzzy
"Oh cause he said his brother tried reaching you a couple of times. I just told him you are taking a nap." My mom said washing her hands and turning to look at me
"Oh...thank you mom...I'm going to call him back right now." I said before turning around and running back to my room and opening my phone
"He really did call back." I said a small smile forming on my face.
YOU ARE READING
Fan Boy (bill kaulitz x male reader)
RomanceThe fan boy [name] had finally saved enough to see his favorite band tokio hotel play. But what happens when he actually gets to meet his favorite band?
