a compilation of poems for u

thank you cards

you know those brief moments

when you decide to put your all into something 

when you're running on pure rage and gatorade

when you decide fuck them

i'll be me without them

i can hold myself up

what have they ever done for me

but hurt me and lie to my face

all they do is pick fights then say they need me

how do i know this time will be different 

how long will it take

1

2

3

4

5 years 

it goes good until it doesn't

i don't need their validation nor do i want it

i will achieve my goals 

i am now a different person 

they are a crutch i no longer need 

i no longer desire their love nor respect 

you said we were too codependent 

for once i agree

i'm tired of friends due to niceties 

i am tired of looking at their faces and acting like everything is okay and nothing happened 

i am so tired of giving and giving and giving myself 

i am so done with not telling people things for the sake of a lunch table

and if i have to say "it's me, not you" so you can sleep better at night i will

but don't expect

any thank-you cards