WHO CURSED YOU IN SILENCE?

POET BIOGRAPHY

I germinate a consciousness of a soul that settled in the negative things that occur during childhood.
I drive my senses hoping to heal from being a victim
But flashbacks keeps coming repetition
I was tortured in my childhood
I'm still a victim in my eyes but I'm trying to survive from it.

I'm fighting this demons every night but the wind pull me closer to alcoholism
I really want to be clean but I lost my faith and I don't believe in the son anymore.
Locking your own child in a dark room with nothing just to save your marriage to a man who broke your heart, but the marriage ended like a drying roots in the ground.

The birth of my child will heal me and it will carry away resentment like a river that's gives life to a land
I'm silence on my brother because I'm suffering and suffocating
I don't want him to know what's happening to me
I love to endure the pain and I know it's painful like the tears of an orphan
I'm in place were I play ace with different substance since September have never been sober.

Falling in love but ended up cutting my veins
I have never been traumatized by love
Tried to communicate to you but your network failed
What can I do when your system shutdown?

Everyday friends go against me, I don't see friendships in every person but I see hatred because they end up accusing me
I'm always alone, I don't need anybody
I'm like flowers that ain't growing from pain, so you don't expect the rain to glow me
Teardrops hoping my grandma would come back to life like a cut down tree that will sprout again.
I escape my pains through smoking cigarettes and getting drunk
I know it is not health but I find comfort in it

At 28 years old, I'm carry pain in my heart
I'm full of resentment
I'm being forthrightness
I'm still suffering like a prisoner in lron chain
I'm sensitive like the fingertips, I feel presentiment
I don't think I'll ever meliorate from it
My heart still wounded and still bleeding from addiction I struggle with.
2022 was one of the worst moments of my life I was near the gate of death
The torture of pain that I went through was higher than the heavens
Broken pieces of me ain't convalescent
Past's past keeps hunting me all directions
What's pain without getting hurt when you are alone in the darkness?

I trust I'll find my origin
Faith keeps on sinking cause I follow my heart like a sin king
28 years old only reflect the image of my father
It's reflection I need to search for in the next light because I'm the thirsty ground
I need spring to flow in me so that I can be happy.

This is poet biography