𝔖𝔬𝔲𝔩 𝔱𝔦𝔢𝔰❤️

𝟎/𝟏𝟒

Dior Wayne ♡
Harlem, New York
5:56pm

" ight I'm out " I said swinging my bag over my shoulder

" bye girly " princess waved smiling widely

I smiled back and waved before walking out ddot house. I sighed soon as I stepped foot out the door. I've been dying to get out that house ever since we got back last night. Let's just say some things may have

happened last night that's truly unexplainable. I may have or may have not made out with my best friends girlfriend. I feel really bad but then again I didn't feel any remorse about what I did. I mean the only thing I

do have remorse for is crossing my best friend since dippers. I've never told ddot or anyone but I was gay. The only reason I was ever really touchy and clingy to
ddot was because I wanted them to believe I was

straight. I hated being judged and I didn't want them to judge me about being gay so I'd always cover up and just keep it to myself. I always made up stories of me and other boys because I wanted to feel apart of

their circle but that wasn't me. I hate guys and I don't like fucking them. I know I just met princess but I catch feelings easily when feeling like I click with another girl and not even on no friendly type shit like

I mean I feel like I'm falling In love with this girl. I've never felt like this before and what fucks with me the most, this is my best friends girl and I feel this way about her. I know I should tell ddot and princess

but I'm scared. I have a feeling that I'm just gonna get rejected because i don't even know if princess is gay or Bisexual but I can also tell she's falling in love with ddot. It hurts me ether way right now because I know

I have no chance but I at least wanna be friends with her and keep my bestie but it's hard when I have feeling for her. About 10 minutes later I finally made it back to my aunts where I was currently staying

while my visit down here. I'm only here for the last 3 weeks of summer. I wasn't staying down here for school or even living but I convinced my parents and aunt to let me come visit down here. I'm dreading

going back away. I hate living with my parents. I feel like I'm living their dream instead of my own. They want me to follow after them and graduate high school then go off to Harvard and becoming a lawyer

just like they did but I truly didn't want to become
that. I just didn't want to let them down so I just went along but idk how long I can do this anymore. I can't keep lying and following after others dreams and what

they portray me to be when it's really not me. I only hurt myself at the end and I can't hold on any longer. I wanna burst and just come out to everyone but I can't. I feel alone on the earth, there's no one I can run to or