Right back at ya!

And so I wait

My mind is churning up chaos
My heart seems to have lost its soft rhythms
My blood runs fast as a lava thr a creek
wishfully crossing to the other side.

If I ask myself, then yes, a change is needed
especially at the present times
as my life goes through a vicious cycle
as it had been before the twenties.
True, I hadn't been able to give my whole potential
then and now;
but then again I turned out great the last time
well, more than great,
Hell, I am at a place my younger self would have fainted over.
Maybe life gets us to places we were never meant to be
places we think,at the time, that doesnot speak you.
But then again, we leave a large chunk of ourselves there when its time to leave
along with a whole lot of love and clueless tears.

I have come this far.
Though i have doubted myself at every step of this journey
though i still have to prove to myself that Im cut out for this
I still have reached a safe place.
I have a career in my hand
I have people that i love around me
I am healthy and have a roof over my head.

Obviously, I have more to be thankful for than to be stressed about.

My brain might have got anxiety out of habit,
Im consciously trying to be detoxed from the same.

Wish me luck!!
Let the decision of tomorrow be the same as it was six years ago.
Let this year bring me everything that should come to me.

JAN 9
2023