Demons are real they live in our minds

Losing mind

Can we go back in time to the part where I didn't want die
That time was so long ago
I remeber the first time I tried
I was only 5 at that the time
My parents made feel bad all I ever got was hate from them
It went on for years
I'm 15 now 10 yrs later and I'm still alive still wanting to die
But I have friends who care
They try to help
But I still want to die
I got them fooled thinkin I'm okay
Like I won't kill myself okay
But what they don't relize I want to die
I think about drowning or over dosing everyday
I may do it one day
I don't know though
I want to live but I want to die
Someone help me
I'm losing my mind