Until i met you. (Phan)

O h m y g o. D

"Hi Dan!! :D

So I saw your videos, they're awesome!! I love them!! You can become a great vlogger in just a few months! (: so my answer to your question, is sure, I'd love to make a video with you! ^_^ by the way, I subscribed :D message me back when you're ready to make it??

-Phil <(• o•)>"

I stared at my laptop screen-
Did.. Did the Phil Lester just message me?..

No. This has to be some kind of prank- a troll. This isn't really happening to me. I'm no one on youtube- how could he possibly like me?!?

Holy fucking shit.

Phil
Lester
Messaged
Me
Back.

No world im not dead, im just shITTING MY SELF. IM LITERALLY IN SPACE RIGHT NOW?!?
HOLY S H I T

So, I clicked on his profile just to make sure
It's him.
The real phil Lester.

HOLY FUCK ME WITH A BREAD STICK

---------- time skip 5min-----------

Okay Dan. Calm down. He's just a person. He's probably only going to do one video with you and he'll probably hate you afterwards, he'll just leave you once you tell him you're gay. Just like everyone else. Don't get your hopes up too high.

"Fuck me" i said aloud reading over his message

Should I respond?!? What if I sound like a idiot?? What if I make a typo?!? He'll probably say he's busy and can't make a video with me.

You know what? I'm not responding back today, for fucks sake he sent this 5 hours ago. I'd look like a stalker if I messaged him so quickly.

So I put my laptop down on my bed and stretched, still in shock that the Phil Lester messaged me back.

"Daniel?!?!?" Pj said
Wait.. Pjs here?!

I got up from my bed and headed down stairs as quickly as I can and almost fell but managed to say

"PHIL FUCKING HOT ANGEL LESTER MESSAGED ME BACK HOLY SHIT FUCKFUCKFUCK" in less than 7 seconds. (Authors note- 7 second challenge lmao ooPS)

"Wait what slow down sleepy guy! What happened?!" He said quite confused and laughed

"Phil Lester.. You know him on Youtube??"
"No??... Haven't heard of him."
"Okay, that's fine, but he has hundreds of subscribers- I thought he was fucking hot as hell and messaged him- asking if he'd like to make a video together. Guess what."
"He mentioned you or something??.."
"He messaged me back"
"Holy shit"
"Holy shit"
"He messaged you back?! That's insane!!"
"I honestly didn't think he would. I'm as shocked as you are. I didn't respond- im scared to. What if I mess up?!? Sound like a idiot?!"
"Dan you won't. I promise. Just message him back."
"But peej he's probably going to tell me he hates me because I'm gay"
"No he won't."
"Yes he will"
"No"
"Pj, he will. I know he will"
"Jesus Christ daniel, message him back, you're talking about a youtuber you know?? A YouTuber."

I sighed as I sat down on my couch and covered my face with my hands and made a very very inhuman noise.

"You'll be okay Dan. Don't stress about it." Pj said

"I'm not.."
Pj sat right next to me, and smiled ruffling my hair.
"You will be; you're too cute to not like."
"What?"
"What"
"You just said-"
"No"
"...okay"

---time skip---

It's currently... 23:45
It's pretty late and pj is still here, we've just be watching death note really. We also got pizza- we didn't eat much of it because we were too busy yelling at L.

"D-Daniel??"
"What??" I looked at him from the other couch
"I like you."
"Pj.."
"Dan.. Please.. I really do you're an amazing person, you've been my friend for years. You're the one thing that's missing from my life."
"Pj I-"
"No im sorry I should've never said that. I'm stupid. You don't like me. I'll be on my way now. Sorry. For everything." He got up and put on his jacket
"Pj no come back."
"Sorry."

I heard a loud slam and I buried my head into the blanket- why am I a asshole. Why couldn't I just say "of course, we can go out!" Oh right- you are a fucking loser thats why.

I got up and shut the tv off, looking at my phone and opened it, texting pj: it's okay. Call me soon??

Damn it Daniel you're such a fuck up.

I walked to my room and settled in my bed, my laptop still open, the screen black. I pressed the space bar and saw Phils message again.

I can't do this. He'll hate me anyway.

I moved the mouse slowly to the trash icon on his message.

I can't do this. I'm sorry phil.

I clicked delete and closed my laptop, putting it to the side.

Maybe later.

Goodnight.