CONSEQUENCES

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JISELE ADAMS
'Jilly'
RALEIGH • 919

"Why you acting awkward?" Milo looked at me while I stood by the door in his house.

Everything felt so weird. I didn't feel right knowing my true intentions for getting back with him.

"I don't know." I shrugged while making my way to the couch where he was.

"You act like this our first time meeting. You wasn't even shy like this back then."

"Technically it is... Starting over, remember?"

"Yeah. I guess." He focused his attention on the tv.

"You should take me on a first date." I started up a random conversation.

"You not pose to ask a nigga to do that." He looked at me.

"Well how you gone know to do if I don't?"

"We already went on a date before."

"We did? Don't recall. I thought just met you."

He smiled and shook his head, "Aight then, where you wanna go?"

"Surprise me."

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"This your idea of a date?" I frowned seeing that we were pulling up to a beach. "We drove three hours for a damn beach?"

"Just come on." He told me while parking the car.

I folded my arms with an attitude as we got out and began walking.

"You know not everything has to be done with money, right?"

"Yeah I know but what's that suppose to mean?"

"Sitting on the beach and talking is a date. You just don't like the fact that it ain't nothing all fancy."

"Okay fine. What we gone talk about?"

"You."

"Me? Yeahhhh, no. I rather talk about you, you know enough about me anyway."

"What you wanna know?"

"Hmm... You close with your family?"

"Just my mom and brother. I don't mess with the rest of em."

"Why?"

"They fake— well my momma side fake & my dad side just don't want nothing to do with me at all."

"Why?"

He narrowed his eyes at me making me throw my hands up.

"I just wanna know...I never asked you nothing personal like that before."

He looked straight ahead before answering, "My dad was married when he was messing with my mom then eventually his wife found out and because his family fucked with the lady he was married to, they didn't fuck with my mom on some loyalty type shit."

"But what that got to do with you?"

"The lady couldn't have kids so she was hurt when she found out my dad went out and had them with somebody else— and because she wasn't happy about it, his family wasn't either so they decided to not claim me or my brother out of respect for her."

"Well was your dad there for y'all?"

"Nah. He ain't wanna deal with us either cause it was messing up his marriage."

"That's crazy. He still hasn't tried to connect with y'all till this day?"

"He's dead and don't ask what happened to him or nothing else about it at all."

"I won't." I responded seeing that it wasn't a topic he really like to speak on.

"What you been up to since we stopped talking?"

"Nothing much. Focusing on school for right now." I told him. "I was supposed to start doing lashes but depression started kicking my ass."

"You still getting yo ass kicked?"

"I guess not."

"So start."

"I will...Eventually. But what about you? What you been doing?"

"Smoking and chilling. Ain't shit else to do."

"Everyday? That's what you've been doing?"

"Yeah. It brings me peace so why not."

"You don't want to do anything else with your life?"

"Like what?"

"A career?"

"Ain't got no interest in a career. I don't wanna work for nobody or be on nobody else timing."

"Start your own business then. What do you like to do?"

"Smoke. That's why I sell it, that is my business."

I sucked my teeth, "Something legit. Like cutting hair? Selling clothes? Doing tattoos? It's hella shit out here for you."

He looked at me and smiled, "Why you care?"

"It's only so far selling drugs gone get you." I paused, "It would be nice to you see become successful from something positive."

He nodded his head, "Ima definitely keep that in mind."

"Good."

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I feel like I'm updating to fast now. Maybe i should wait 1 or 2 weeks for the next one? But I just wanna update them right now omg😭