downfalls of hood love

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lelanis POV

after the trip i was finally sitting down talking with jd.

"i alreqdy apologized why you still on this"

"because for you to swear you had so much love for amina you fw a bitch-

"i wasnt fucking with her. you tripoing kver a bitch that was a walking piece of pussy like what" he daif

"its not that" i said

"so what is it"

"yhe principle of it"

"dont give a fuck if it was the janitor" he said

i just laughed "you my only family acting like this. acting like youn know right from wrong judt like everybody else" i said

"no you just need to get over it that shit was a whole 2 weeks ago"

"bro its not THAT! you know that bitch aint fwm nor amina and you brought her around me and embarrassed me in front of EVERY BODY. had me lookin like i just sit around and take bs knowing i dont ...? my own brother what the fuck. if you wouldve just said sum to me then maybe i would've compromised with you-"

"aint shit to compromise im a grown ass man what the fuck dont you get"

"oh but when i used to fw carmelo and you aint like him what i do ? cut him off. her pussy cannot be that good and even if it is its enough to do me dirt? ion get it. it was a foul move"

"and i apologized already" he said

"fake ass apology you dont even care fr. if amina was still here you wouldn't even be doing that shit you done got to tripping bro"

"BUT SHE NOT HERE ? wtf yall complain about me being depressed and then when i try to take my mind of shit yall trip about that. what the fuck do yall want from me?" he said now standing up

"find better ways bro. bitches ajnt always the answer you know how easy it is to fuck on some other bitch?"

"what if ion want no more bodies"

"so betray me instead ? got it. yo head aint right no more" i said shaking my head

"that's literally like me bringing carmelo on the trip knowing he stole from you"

"nah dats different he stole and all that other shit you aint like destiny over sum high school shit ... drop it?" he said

"its the fact that we are siblings jaylen. you've all i had since i could fucking remember. now you acting like the rest of the family. making me feel like my feelings dont mean shit to nobody" i said crying

"but you dont care right?" i said walking out his room

i closed my door and locked it. i heard him trying to twist the knobs

"lelani" he said

and i just ignored him

"bro open the door" he said

"leave me alone jaylen. ima getnover it like you said."

"lets finish talking" he said

i went into the bathroom started the shower and played ella mai.

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i was currently at work preparing the field for this football game tonight. i was so mentally drained from the argument this morning with jd.

"can i get my fingers wrapped" he said

"where yo gloves at" i asked

"you cant put it on without it" he asked