Stories from the Heart

My Reason to Be Is Crushed

MY REASON TO BE IS CRUSHED

The only reason for being me was because of him

I loved him more than anyone can imagine

He was my reason to be

When times got harsh he comforted me

When I got got mad he let me be

When I was abused he set me free

Never once has he touched me

All his life he protected me

He was my reason to be

And for that I became the perfect daughter.

All those years I got straight A's just so I can hear him say he always belived in me

Everytime I did something nice,

it was so I could see his bright smile shine for miles.

I never once did these wonderful things for anyone else

Because he was my reason to be

Then things took a turn for the worst

I became wise and learned that somethings his wife said to me should be kept in her head

Or the decisions she made should have never been said

So I became defiant and angry

I talked back and became a little brat

But not to him.... only to his special little wife

I guess he didnt appreciate this since she fed me and cleaned up the house or looked nice in a blouse (if you know what I mean) because he ignored my cries of help and punished me

He didnt understand what she did to me when he was gone

She verberly and physically abused me

But this time he choose not to let me free.

He decided to belive in her little white lies that were about me.

My reason to be is crushed

So I stareted to cut

They found and for the first time he hit me

It only made him more ashamed to have me as his daughter

I only became a disgrace

My reason to be is crushed

My grades went down and he found out I talked to boys

He thought it was more than just friend play so called me a hoe

How could someone I looked up to say such a mean thing

My reason to be is crushed

Even now I am lost without any hope

He isnt my reason to be anymore

I haven't changed who I really am because I am that good person even without him by my side

I raised my grades,stayed nice, and sane for myself.

Though I still cry everynight because I wish things went back to the way they were

I came to realize that it never will be the same because my reason to be is crushed