•𝐹𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠• {𝚃𝚊𝚗𝚓𝚒𝚛𝚘 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛} ♡︎♡︎

*sneaking out?*

As I was running I saw zenitsu and inosuke outside of my house, I didn't want them in my house anymore seeing me so messed up, so I pushed them aside and closed the door locking them out

"I'm very sorry you guys but I need space rn and I apologize" I said with my voice shivering

I didn't want to but I wanted to be alone..
I looked out the window and saw them standing outside asking me to come out

I went into my room and locked myself in.
I grabbed my haori with a hoodie on and covered myself in a corner
Just feeling regret, sadness, guilt,
Many emotions..

Many days later (like 3-4 days)

It's been a few days since that happened..
I sometimes look out my window and see zenitsu and inosuke staying with shinobu for a bit
And that made me guilty for just kicking them out even though they didn't do anything wrong
I wanted to say something but I was to afraid to see kyojuro or tanjiro passing by
The only person that's here to comfort me is my furry friend. (El Gatooooo) lol. Sometimes shinobu would come inside and bring me food since I haven't ate in 2 days. I mean I did drink water so atleast that's good since humans could live without food for days... maybe weeks

I then saw shinobu here knocking on my door leaving me food in front of it

" y/n.. can you please eat.. you haven't eaten for days. You need your protein." She said
She was right tho I haven't eaten for days. I don't know why but it's probably the guilt I feel. "I'm such a depressed mess" I said mumbling to myself

I then opened the door slighting and took the food, and closed it quickly so shinobu doesn't try barging in.
"Oh cmon y/n, you can talk to me, mitsuri and I have your back okay." She said
"Thank you shinobu but I would rather be alone okay, I hope you understand.." I said

Im glad she does but she does worry about me very much.

I then saw her out my window talking to kyojuro.. »I guess kyojuro sent her here to atleast talk to me but it didn't work«
Although I was hungry and saw the food so I decided to eat.
I didn't eat much tho since I always eat a lot.

I didn't want to starve myself to death and think kyojuro is his fault for it so I decided to make a plan for tonight...

3rd pov

"Guys calm down i know eventually she will talk right?!" Mitsuri said
"Awww i hate seeing y/n so sad and depressed, it makes me want to cryyy." Zenitsu said lying on the ground

"This is my f-fault.." Rengoku said
"Rengoku May i talk to you alone for a second" said shinobu

Rengoku and shinobu started walking somewhere quiet

"Listen Rengoku please don't blame yourself, that's the least that can make y/n worse.."
" *sigh* I know she told me not to tell you this but, you deserve to know.." Shinobu said looking at Rengoku

"The things she has been hiding from you are.. hard to explain but I will try my best."
"Listen Rengoku she has told me about what her father does to her and why she wanted to keep it a secret from you... she didn't want you to blame yourself and think it was your choice to become a hashira."

"She says it's a great thing that your a hashira and you should be proud of yourself for it. She never wanted you to blame yourself for something that wasn't even your fault."

"She didn't want you to get hurt by your father and senjuro, you know how much she cares for you and senjuro right."

Rengoku spoke

"I do, but she could get herself really injured if she doesn't think for herself, like when we went to fight uppermoon 3 at the mugen train."

S-she pushes herself to hard trying to protect us and make us proud." Rengoku said