Chapter 12

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Rosalina's POV:

My heart flutters every time she looks at me I don't understand these feelings why am I feeling this towards her why my heart skips a beat when I look at her.

shes my assistant I'm her boss I can't be having these feeling. 

I'm seventeen years older than her I'm old enough to be her mother for fuck sakes.

I have to push these feelings aside I can't act on these feelings because if I do I'll just end up getting hurt in the end.

Me and sky ended up going back to the hotel after eating are ice cream it was pure silence not one of us said a word she went into her room and I went into mines.

The rest of the trip we stayed to are selfs not saying a word to each other unless it was about business.

We ended up leaving France on Friday It was the most awkward week of my life. There really wasn't a need for it to be awkward right?...But then again it was.

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|Sunday|
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*𝘿𝙞𝙣𝙜* *𝘿𝙞𝙣𝙜* *𝘿𝙞𝙣𝙜*

My alarm rang making me groan I grab my phone turning off the alarm before checking the time I sit there for a couple more minutes before getting up and taking a shower.

Taking a grip of the proactive bottle I squirt some face wash into my hands before rubbing it into my skin for two minutes.

I wash it off my face before washing my body and getting out the shower.

Drying off my wet body I put lather lemon and lavender lotion in my hands before rubbing it all over my body.

As I was rubbing lotion on my legs I feel something drip down my leg onto the floor I look down and see little puddle of blood at my feet I groan before going to reaching over towards the bathroom cabinet digging through the cabinet I try and find a tampon and curse myself when I can't find one I roll my eyes before going to the linen closet and pulling out a new box of tampons after doing my business and cleaning myself up I look at my self in the mirror

I stand in-front of the body mirror pinching the excess fat on my stomach.

His words flash across my mind.

"𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑎 𝑁𝑜𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦" "𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑒𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑜𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡
"𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑡ℎ𝑦 𝑒𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ" "𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝 𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑔𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑏𝑖𝑔𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒" "𝑖 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑎 𝐷𝑖𝑠𝑔𝑢𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑖𝑔"

I watch the tears spring from my eyes as i look at myself in disgust.

Maybe he's right you know maybe I will never be worthy enough for anybody.

I wipe my tears throwing on baggy sweat pants and hoodie before going back to bed not bothering to dry my wet hair.

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