My Heart Is So Tired: Part Two (Winter)

If only I knew.

It was summer

one of those

cool

crisp nights

that make 

you shiver

delightfully.

Back then, 

in this

time period

I was the girl

I used to be.

But

on this

cool

crisp night,

that all collapsed.

Now,

mind you,

I'm not

one of 

those girls

who party

the night away.

I was dragged

to this party

by a "friend"

I never guessed

that the drink

she handed me

bubbled

with the venom

of alcohol. 

I never guessed

that I 

would drunkenly

stumble across

those matches.

I never meant

to burn

that farmhouse

all

away. 

I never wanted

the burns

to twist along

my arms.

I never wanted

for it to seem

that I had

done it

purposefully.

I never wanted 

any

of that.

But the 

evidence

was there. 

I was alone

on this one.

But the worst

of it all?

There was 

nothing

I could've done

myself.