Sunshine and lollipops

A straight boy who likes boys... wait no.

Leon's POV

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"I'm home!" I call out, hoping someone will answer. Of course, no one does. I sigh. Home sweet home.

Three and a half hours later and 4 episodes of Stranger Things I still haven't gotten any response. No one is here. Not even Nita. Whatever. I'll just call up Sandy and tell him to come over, then we can laugh at Mike and Eleven's relationship and how stupid it is while eating chips and soda.

Oh right... he's not talking to me. That reminds me. Great. Now I gotta sort out my feelings. I totally don't like him in that way. Those were just weird thoughts I had during the day because I was emotional. But I wanna see my lips on his.

Okay.. what? This isn't true. These are just thoughts in my head. I'm obviously upset and so my brain is making up weird ways to cope. That's it. Definitely.

I need time to process this. I'll go take a hot shower. Then I'll convince myself that it's all made up. Cause that's what it is. Right?

The water is boiling on my skin, but it feels good that way. Like I'm letting out all my emotions. I wanna let out my feelings, I want to know why these thoughts are in my head.

Logic and facts, Leon. I just gotta remind myself of that and I'm a straight boy. That I like boys, no shoot... girls. I like girls. Totally. Except for the fact, I've never liked one in my life before and I'm crushing on Sandy.

God damn no I'm not. I don't like him. No, please.

But then the thoughts flood into my head about how badly I want him and need him in my life. He's my other half, my soulmate. I've known him for so long. I miss him when we aren't near each other. I want him to be mine.

So it's official. I believe that, no I know that I love him. I have a crush on Sandy. And that's okay. It's okay that I like boys.

However, the hard part will be coming out to my friends and family.