Melissa
Part 1
She promised.
This promise means more to me than things getting better. It's about
me feeling better.
From the point I'm at now, feeling "better" is going to take a while.
The rage, the disgust, the hatred I feel for Dylan, on top the guilt
of knowing that I was so stupid to be mixed up with a guy like Dylan,
is a lot to handle.
Sitting next to Deena, I also felt a bit of jealously. She was smart
enough to not get mixed up with guys, period. And to be so naive to
not even realize that such a great guy really cares for her. Ryan
would never do anything like this to her. All I was looking for is a
guy like that. One guy who genuinely cares for me... I thought that
guy was Dylan, but clearly I was mistaken.
Although I was with Deena, the silence that came with being in the
bathroom during class time brought a sense of loneliness.
Suddenly, my phone went off... it was a text, from Dylan. I started to
tremble, I couldn't read it. So, I passed it to Deena.
"Do you want me to read it to you?" she asked quietly. I nodded.
"'{Hey Melissa, sorry 'bout this, I know it's kind of sudden, but it's
over... see you around}' and he put a wink face. What a pig," She said
sadly, with disgust.
The emotions I felt where ten hundred times worse than what they were
before. They were also ten hundred times worse than what I've ever
experienced before. I threw up because I felt so betrayed, heart
broken, used, furious, worthless, guilty, jealous, and disgusted.
People think I go a little "crazy" after a break up? Well wait until
they see what I've got planned.
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