Trying to figure shit out

Changing

Be coming an new and improved version of myself. .....

I tell myself this all the time everyday matter of fact. But do I honestly believe it everyday no not at all. Regardless I have to keep going..
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"Sigh.." As I write this down in my journal. I stop as I catch myself crying seeing tears hit my the paper. I close the journal and look up at my vanity and stare at myself not moving one inch. Then I hear my alarm on my phone go off.

"Oh shit Ima be late for class FUCK !!!"
I yell as I get my Bookbag bag and find my shoes. I grab everything lock the door and get in my car.
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You see my name is shi I am 24 and I attend Johnson University . I have been attending here for 2 years now. I am a straight A student and I'm in a lot of clubs and associations. I have to keep myself busy so I won't dowel on my past.I have been having a hard time getting through a lot in my life since I was 14 and yet here I am. I try to make the most of my days. I am a pathology major so I barley have time to see anyone at all. And yes that includes my family and friends. Plus I have two jobs as well. It gets and is really stressful at times but it will be all worth it soon !! Well enough about me let's me get to school Lmaooooo 😂.

*Phone rings*
Bestie J 💕🧚🏿‍♂️Calling
Hey Siri answer
Hellooooo
B : heyyyy bitchhhhh
Lmaooooo wassup fam
B : where you at girl
I'm heading to school I'm almost to your house I'm 3 minutes away. So come on
B : Lmaooooo you already knew my next question huh and Ight here I come.
*Continues talking*
As I'm pulling into her driveway she runs to the car fast as hell. We stop and get some food have small talk and then head to class.