My guilty conscious is eating me away
Struggling with it every day
I wish I hadn't left
Somewhat a theft
Taking feelings and crushing them
While I'm here
facing fears
Wiping tears
Believe me I wish I wasn't gone
My life however, feels like a pawn
Drawn and quartered
A brick wall without mortar
Falling apart like an old rusty car
Wishing on a shooting star
That they will forgive me for leaving
And for wanting to be bleeding
My desires gone
My soul bared
The people just stared
So I closed off from the world
My fingers curled
Trying to grasp the very vice
That changed my heart to ice
Knocking down walls
You answered my calls
Giving me hope
If just for a moment
I used you to fend off the night
You, so full of light
Oh, what have I done
Oh, what have I become
I'm sorry.
I left, and cut a hole
My reasons black as coal.
Forgive me.
I tried to become someone I was not
But that's just it.
I don't know who I am.
Not anymore.
Anything that defined me is gone.
So, I'm sorry.
As the light lifts up the dawn.
