Chapter 7.

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1.The shower is turned on.
I am here naked
In my bath
Numbing out some pain
I do this everytime something becomes unbearable
Let water flow over me like i don't exist beneath it
Today too
Thinking about the mistakes i have made
And you know you top this list
That pillow on my distorted bed
Knows how much i sobbed the day you left
I couldn't control myself
I was breaking, shattering. And you did that to me
And you broke my heart
My consciousness
My sanity
Everything
How did you feel after that huh?
Okay this water is making me feel
Better
Tears make me feel good
After crying i feel like i can do better next time
I don't know why?
Gives me hopes maybe
But with you there were no next times
I want to mourn on you
But i won't cry
You lost the worth my tears hold
My tears are frozen tonight...


2.I know we are different
And you say i am too good for you
And we let go
I knew we don't have a forever
Just some moments
But we let go
We are not meant for each other maybe
Maybe we are those young people who fell in love with the wrong people
And at some breezy evenings like these
When the sun is brightening up my skin
Warm and smooth
I miss your cuddles
If only i had them
But i wanted to ask you something?
Now how to i have no idea at all
Let's ponder over the question
If we you had one last day on earth
You'd come to me?
Would you?
Because i would
And i would make love to you that whole night
Totally
Because you were the only last thing i wanted
And if
I would get you
Just before i drift off
There wouldn't be anything as bloody good as that
But would you
I guess no because i have already lost you!

3.Look at me everyone,
just see this is how someone who gets betrayed looks like
Like an empty flowing box
Which everyone is trying to fill in
But its drowning anyways...

4.Another day comes up
Another sunrise
Another hope
Another light
But something never changes
Like scars
We heal but the scars never ever go away
I am still holding on something i never had
My heart is bleeding
From how much i holds in there.
It hurts
So
Much
Still your memories are something i cherish and i want to hold on to them
They are creeping up my lungs
Grumbling in my stomach
Taking up whole of my brain
Let's breathe pain today
Again...

 It hurtsSo MuchStill your memories are something i cherish and i want to hold on to themThey are creeping up my lungsGrumbling in my stomachTaking up whole of my brainLet's breathe pain todayAgain

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