What Can Come of So Much Pain

Chapter One

Hyun-Ae P.O.V.

“naekkeo haja, naega neol saranghae, ou~?

naega neol geokjeonghae, ou~?

naega neol kkeut kkaji, chaekim jil ge

naekkeo haja, niga nal aljanha, ou~?

niga nal bwat janha, eo?

naega neol kkeut kkaji, jikyeo julge”

Translation:

“Be mine, I love you, okay.. ou~?

I worry about you, okay..  ou~?

I’ll take care of you till the end

Be mine, you know me, right.. ou~?

You saw me right, eo?

I’ll protect you till the end”

 Infinite’s “Be Mine” was blasting through my speakers filling the room with a sweet melody.

“Hyun-Ae!!!!” I heard my mom yell “Can you please turn down the music?”

“What did you say?!” I yelled over the music “Did you say turn up the music? It’s already as loud as it can get sorry” I said playfully while getting up off my bed and grabbed my phone and turned down the volume.. I heared a knock at the door and before I knew it my mom burst into my room with an angry expression on her face.

“I said can you---------“my mom cut her sentence short when she realized that I turned it down, an exasperated sigh left her lips,  “why do you do this to me, Hyun  why”

I just looked at her not saying a word. She looks around my room and she stares at all of my infinite posters and decorations “Look honey, I know you want him around, but he choose to become an idol” she paused and she walks towards me, she sat  me down on my bed and placed my head on her shoulder, she pats my head and in a soft tone she says.

“I know but it’s the only way I can be close to him, he never responds to the text messages I send him.”

“He’s so busy with promotions sweetie and you know if he could come home, he would”

“Yea I know” I say in a small voice

“Now, your father is home and dinner is ready” she got up kissed me on my forehead and left. I laid down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling covered with infinite posters. “Brother Gyu, why did you have to leave me hear by myself, I miss you so much. Now that you are gone and your being successful, exploring the world, and having fun, all the attention of mom and dad are on me they expect more out of me and I don’t think I can give them that, and you know how much I hate being a burden to them., I hope you’ll visit real soon and maybe you can stay for a whole weekend so that we can hang out together, hell you can even bring the members along. Be strong and be healthy and make sure you steer the dongsanges into the right path. Oppa Fighting!!” As I stared up at the poster I realized that Gyu wasn’t the best looking one, but he had potential and plus I don’t see him that way, but he was my brother who was always there for me when I needed him. So it was hard for me to let him go when he left to be a trainee and I realized that I couldn’t stop him from going because it was his dream to become an idol. When he left I spent about two months locked up in my room and I would cry myself to sleep, luckily I had my best friend Kim Jong In by my side he helped me through it.

“Hyun-Ae!” my father voice cut through my thoughts, I quickly looked at my door, crap I when did he come home. 

“Coming dad!” I yelled back at him. I took one more glance up at the ceiling and I quickly jumped out of my bed, grabbed my phone and left my room in a hurry, and went down stairs.

“So how was your Sunday?” my father asked me when I arrived at the dinner table, before I sat down I went to the counter and I fixed my plate, I sat down across from him so that we were face to face. For some odd reason he wants my full attention on him when he speaks so it’s a rule that I have to sit across from him.

“Long and boring” I respond while picking at my food.

“Did you not hang out with Jong In today?”

“Nope he had dance class today, so I stayed here with mom” I said smiling at my mom, oh boy do I hate spending time with my mom. All I ever get from her is nagging, if she isn’t nagging about one thing she’s nagging about another thing.

“So, Hyun I----------------------“ I stopped listening when my phone started to vibrate in my lap. I look down at my phone and saw that it was a text message from Jong In

“What are you up too?”

“Dinner with my parents, why?”

“Because I want you come over to the dance studio, so you can see the chorography that I came up with for the audition”

“The audition is like a two weeks away”

“You don’t think I know that Hyun? “

“Yup I know you know”

“Anyway, apparently they already casted the vocalist of the group and there supposed to be over 2,000 people auditioning.”

“Hyun-Ae!” my dad voice cut in, taking my attention away from my phone, and my face quickly meet his “did you hear what we told you?”

“Ummmm…………..” I started looking up at the ceiling “No” I added with a smile.

He let out a frustrated sigh “your mother and I are going to Jeju Island tonightfor my company retreat and you could either stay her or stay with a friend””

“Well dad, you already know my answer but i know you have something else in mind” 

“You are right you are not staying here by yourself, and you’re not staying with Jong In”

“But dad, I kinda agree with on not staying home and Jong In’s is my closestfriend.”

“You’re not staying at a boy’s house Hyun Ae”

“And why is that?” I asked with a hard expression “I mean I don’t see him in that way dad,   and I could always  stay at the house all by myself.”

“Feelings can develop sweet heart” my mom chimed in.

“Mom if I haven’t developed them now, then I won’t in the future” I told her but I was looking at my dad while saying it. “I would always see him as a brother figure.” Me and my dad locked eyes for several minutes not saying a word, my mom kept shaking her head in disapproval of the argument that we are having. I hear my dad letting out a heavy sigh

“Fine if it’s okay with his parents and you sleep in a different room then him, than you can stay at his place.” My dad finally gave in.

Yessss I silently praised myself. “Thank you so much, and mom the food was good” I say as I get up from the dinner table and cleaned my area up.

“And where do you think your going?” my mom asked

“I have to meet Jong In at the studio”

“Did you finish your homework?” my dad asked

“Of course, dad if I haven’t done it then I wouldn’t have asked you dad.” I said in a mildly tone

“That’s funny I don’t remember you asking.” He fired back

Damn it he got me on there “oh yea, can I go please?” I asked with a lot of ageyo

“alright, but be careful I want you at his house at 1 ok”

“Yes sir” I say with a big smile, I went left the dinning room and went into to my and grabbed my backpack because I know and he knows that I did not do my homework yet. I hurried out the door and before I closed the door I yelled “See you guys when you comeback”