ill survive if I have you || buddie fanfic

he needs me

eddies pov

"bobby I need the day of work I have to check on buck. he needs me" I say as soon as we headed back to the station 

"why so urgent none of us are talking to him are we" bobby said scanning the room as everyone shakes there head 

"can we go in your office" I whisper as bobby leads me in. I can tell bobby still cares about buck but he was like me he was angry but once he knows what buck is going through he will understand. Bucks health is more important than anything. Bobby sat down at his computer clicking around 

"are you going to continue" he said continuing to click around

"yeah um" I said trying to find the words but was cut off with a shocked gasp from bobby 

"whats wrong" I said shooting my eyes up from my hands to bobby 

"buck has quit" bobby said shocked I was about to explain when u was cut of again

"I mean no reason .. is that it ... is he done fighting for this family. maybe its my fault maybe I was too hard on him when he came back" he rambles getting up from his chair and pacing round the room

"bobby I was trying to tell you he has cancer" I spit out 

"what" he says stopping dead 

"one of the doctors told me today I found buck crying in his car its not good bobby. I'm ... I'm really worried about him" I said

"yeah erm you go and see him" bobby says quickly letting me go and slumping in his chair I ran to the parking lot and jumped in my truck.

bucks pov

when I got home I collapsed on the couch and put a movie on. All I could think about was how hard life is gonna get from now on and the worst part is I had to quit my job. I let a few sobs out as I read back the email that I sent to bobby and the chief. I shut my eyes and the world went dark 

my eyes flickered open when I heard my apartment door shut I jumped up to see Eddie looking at me with a sympathetic smile 

"buck" he smiled with tears in his eyes

"you don't know the half of it" I said slamming my head back against the pillow on the couch staring up at the ceiling with tear stains stretching down my face

"cancer" he said sitting on the other side of the pillow and laying his head next to mine on the pillow I shot a look at him before looking back to the celling 

"how did you know" I mumble with tears rushing down my face 

"a doctor told me" he said we lay there silently for a while

"buck I understand why you did the lawsuit I was just annoyed because I couldn't talk to you" he says after a while 

"I get that Eddie and I'm sorry I really am it was the biggest mistake I have ever made" I say 

"and ive made a few" I laugh causing him to chuckle too 

"I missed you" he mumbled 

"me too" I smile we lay like that on the couch for longer than we thought and only jumped up when the doorbell rang

"shit I told Maddie I had to speak to her she doesn't know" I said panicked 

"do you want me to stay with you" he grinned I nod before opening the door 

"buck whats wrong you said it was urgent ... oh Eddie why are you here are you two friends again" she rambles before I grab her arms 

"Maddie breath .. me and Eddie are friends again but thats not why your here .. erm ... come sit on the couch I need to tell you something important" I say with a sad smile 

"buck your scaring me" she says taking a seat across from Eddie I sit next to Eddie stiffening up as I try to find the words to tell her 

"well .... erm" I stutter before putting my head in my hands then a warm hand rested on my lower back sending a wave of calmness through me I give a thankful look to Eddie

"I have leukaemia" I say as calmly as I could while leaning into eddies touch more 

"what no" she shouts now tears streaming down her face. we spent the rest of the night just the three of us discussing the chemo and all this means for me but even tho I'm sat with the two people I love the most in the world a part of me is sad , sad that I can't work  , sad that I am going to be a burden on them and sad that I could die.