monthly entry // vmin

june

dear park jimin;

     i visit your grave everyday. and it's not what i had imagined in my head how i would spend my summer days with you. you said you loved me. you said we were forever and that you would never leave. why did you break your promise, jimin? i loved you with all i had. that night your dad called me, i was a wreck. i still am a wreck, jimin. i can't go a day without missing you. i can't go without crying when i hear your name. you were my everything. we were supposed to get married, get a little cute house, we were going to get a cute little puppy. we were supposed to have a future, a life together. i will never not think about you. i will never go a minute without my heart hurting. you took my heart with you when you left. i haven't been myself anymore. i was only myself with you. you brought the good out in me, jimin. you brought the happiness out. i love you so god damn much. why did you leave me? you only left me with a letter and your grey sweater. i wear the sweater everyday to sleep. i won't forget about you, i won't let myself forget about you. you were my forever.