Jungkook PoV
I'm really curious right now, I'm barely holding myself from asking what's making her so desperate to get drunk, but I'm just respecting her privacy
She wore my jacket and it looks really cute on her
" Woah, I was really freezing.. thanks "
Well, Im sure I'm blushing now, hell tf why
" Uh, it's nothing "
She put one finger on her mouth signaling me to shut up
" Sshhh, what are you saying! How is that nothing !!"
She furrowed her eyebrows saying that and I just smiled, I think she's already drunk
" Are you already drunk !! " I chuckled
She shook her head strongly
" I guess you are, after just three shots !?"
I laughed, that was really funny and adorable
We stayed silent for a while
" Okay I think it's enough, you can't go that far "
I tried to take the bottle and the glass from her but she just took it away from me
" No, it's my first time "
" That's exactly what I'm saying, you cant go that far at least at your first time "
I tried to take it again and I got her this time but she looked at me with those eyes
" Please Kookie "
Shit, does she had to say that, uhgodamn I'm not falling for that
" Noway ! "
" I'll take one more shot, just one, mm!? "
How tf I supposed to refuse that, I signaled her by putting one finger in front of her face
" Just one !"
She imitated me
" just one "
I gave it to her and she took the last shot then I took the bottle back
" You're so mean "
" Whatever, I'm not giving it back "
" Uugghh, but wait why I cant see clearly "
She put her hand right in front of her eyes trying to figure why it's moving
Okay that's adorable
" Why's everything moving, ugh I'm so dizzy "
" Well, that's normal, but you really didn't drink too much "
" Then give it to me and let me continue"
" No way, you're already losing it"
She put her hand on my jacket's bockets and looked at the sky leaning her head on the back of the chair
" Waaaah, those stars looks beautiful"
I followed her eyes direction and the sky looked really gorgeous right now, she put her hands around her mouth and screamed
" MOOOOOM, CAN YOU HEAR ME FROM UP THERE "
her mother is dead !!?
Well, I definitely didn't know that
" IM DOING FINE MOM, DONT WORRY, JUST TAKE GOOD CARE OF DAAAAD "
her father too, oh god, how tf I didn't know, stupid Jungkook, why the hell she'd live with her annoying aunt if she had her parents, I just thought they're far away or maybe abandoned her, but I never thought they're both dead !
I looked at her while she's looking up to the sky . I could see her eyes sparkling with tears, that's when she shed a tear slowly down her cheek
That broke my heart . .
I was about to wipe it when she lowered her head looking down the ground
" No, Im not fine mom, I need you I miss your hug, your words your scent "
Her voice was really weak and sad
" Dad you told me that you'll be her whenever your doughter call you, but I cant see you, WHY !? "
she started to cry and it's killing me just sitting here doing actually nothing, I just feel shitty
I got closer to her and hesitated before putting my hand on her shoulder and tried to comfort her by patting without saying a single word
She put her face on her both hands and cried just more, it's getting worse but it feels like she was holding it back for a long really long time, so I let her cry as she wants
Afrer about 10 mins she finally calmed down and wiped her tears, then she turned to me
" You told me you'd listen to me whenever I want to talk, didnt you !?" She asked sobbing
" . . uh, yeah I did "
She just sighed and I was really confused, what is it she wants to tell me?!
" So my past is really horrible, it's just shity"
Well, it's the same her but I would never dare to tell her anything
" My dad used to own a company, actually two of them, he was the CEO, my mom didn't use to work, why when she has everything she needs"
Wow, what an information ! How much left that I dont know about her , but wait if they were that rich what the hell happened that ended her like that
She looked at me and smiled
" I know you're confused now "
Cant tell she's wrong tho
" And like all other companies, dads had it's competitors too, but he didn't care, and I'm sure that one of those competitors is the one who killed them both "
Wait, what the.... They were killed, oh god hold on this girl is full of secrets
" Wha- what, KILLED!? "
she put her finger on my mouth to lower my voice, and I flinched with her move
" Sshhh, it's a secret "
" No one is here anyways why even bothered! "
" Still "
Is it that important for her ?!
" No one know that, except for you, me and you now are just the ones who know that they were killed, but it's just me who know the whole story and every small detail "
So it's her and me now who know that they actually were killed, but how the whole story looks like
" Uuuuhhh, I'm really dizzy " she stood up and start walking
" Where are you going "
" What do you mean, I'm going home "
She said that then headed to the way out of the park unbalanced
" Is it okay for you to go home drunk at this hour "
" Uh- hahaha, dont worry she'll just say some fucked up words and I'll be okay after "
" Even though, you cant, I know you won't be fine "
" Then what should I do, where should I go "
Then she got closer and whispered
" Should I go home with you "
I choked on her words and her low chuckle on my shoulder
I just stood there staring at nothing don't actually know what to do, if she continued to act that way I dont really know what I'd do with her, I'll seriously be in trouble, she looked up at me with those innocent eyes but if she knows what's actually going on my head right now, I'm sure she'll be scared
I bited my lip and swallowed my saliva, she looked at my lips and at this moment I cant hold myself back anymore, she got closer and I did the same, I can feel her breath at that point and my heart is racing that I bet she could hear it's beating
STOP !
JUNGKOOK YOU CAN'T
I stopped myself from going further, and put both of my hands on her shoulder, she looked at me confused
" Let's get you sober first then think about what you should do "
She was walking unbalanced so I took her hand heading to my house
I know I did the right thing I shouldn't take advantage of her when she's drunk, even more I want her to be sober at a moment like this, I want her to fully realize how I really feel, and that's won't happen if she's drunk
I opened the door and let her in, she was confused looking around didn't actually know what she should do or where she should go
" The bathroom is that way "
" Aah- o-okay "
" Wash your face and I'll make something warm to drink "
Okay Jungkook, she'll finish her drink and you'll just walk her home, no weird thoughts, okay!
" WHERE'S THE TOWEL KOOKIE "
" I-IT'S R-RIGHT THERE "
I went to handle it to her
" Uh-I mean Jungkook heh"
" Ah it's nothing, actually it's- "
" It's what !?"
I just realized that she isn't fully drunk anymore and I cant just say anything
" Aaahh my head is really aching, It feels horrible ".
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Stay safe and healthy out there
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He Used To Be Kookie
العاطفيةIt doesn't mater how much I hate my old memories it'll remain better than my reality, and once I went back to it, he appeared, just as I wanted but not as i wished.
