I was finally so happy
'Y/N..' Sarah said while i was still in her arms and she looked at me
'Yes Sarah?' I replied to her and I pulled away so that I could look at her
'You don't have to do this if you don't want to.. I don't want to make you think that this is the only reason why I want to keep contact with you' She said and she was looking down with crystallised eyes. I grabbed her chin with my finger and lifted it up
'Sweetheart.. I want to be with you like this. I don't feel like I have to, I want to! And I think I really like you. Even more than I did before' I was so sad that Sarah was feeling this way.. I couldn't stand seeing her beautiful smile turn into a frown
'Want to watch a movie?' She wiped her tears away with the back of her hand and she gave me a weak smile
'Of course! I'll order us some pizza' Sarah nodded and I grabbed my phone to make the order
We put on The Notebook and we were both crying. I turned my head to the side and looked at Sarah, thinking to myself how lucky I was. I felt so happy that exact moment and a small giggle came out of my mouth.
'Stooop why are you laughing?' She asked me and she pulled me closer kissing the top of my head
'You are just incredibly cute miss Paulson.. That's all'
'Shut up I am too old to look cute' She was so serious. She turned her head facing the TV and knowing that Sarah felt like this for herself made my heart break
'Don't even think about this again. Remember what you told me before? You shouldn't feel this way about yourself. You're beautiful and who gives a shit about their age?' I said and I kissed her
'You're so sweet' she replied interrupting our kiss and then she started kissing me again putting her hands all over my body 'I'm sorry..' she said apologetically
'It's okay. Don't be silly' Sarah nodded politely resting her head on my shoulder and I kissed it
'Just let me know when you feel ready. I don't want you to feel pressured at all'
'Of course. Don't worry about it' I replied to her and we just sat there cuddling until we fell asleep
8.00pm ( Sarah's POV)
I opened my eyes and I noticed that I was sat in the exact same place where I had fallen asleep in the first place too. Y/N too. The TV was still on, and another movie was now playing
'Y/N wake up we fell asleep' I said with a sleepy voice but she didn't even bother to open her eyes and just mumbled something that I didn't even understand. She seemed so vulnerable
'Can't we sit like this forever? I don't want to get uppp' She said and hugged me tighter. God I love her so much
'Y/N don't do this, come on get up. We slept for so many hours and I'm starving'
'Sarah, you are always starving, can't you wait a liiitle bit more?' She said and looked at me with puppy eyes
'Okay first of, I'm not starving aaall the time I mean- I sleep too... And second of all, get up I want to take you somewhere!' I said and Y/N got up so fast and looked at me with wide opened eyes
'We are going out?' I nodded yes 'Together?' She asked again
'Yes silly! I want to take you some place nice!' I replied to her and held both her hands
'Omg now I am nervous.. Sarah Paulson wants to take me some place nice.. What should I wear?' She was so anxious and that made her so cute
'Sarah Paulson would like you to be yourself, that's why she likes you in the first place' I said to her and placed a strand of her soft hair behind her ear, rubbing her cheek too
'Fine.. Come on then let's go get ready' She said all excited and pulled me up
We got into my closet and started picking some clothes. I decided to wear a black suit with a pair of high heels and Y/N wore one of my floral dresses
'You look.. stunning' I said to her and spinned her around admiring her beauty
'I need to stop wearing your clothes' she said smiling
'I love seeing you in them. You make them much prettier than any other person could' Y/N thanked me and then she kissed me
We went downstairs, grabbed our bags and then stepped outside. I got my car and after Y/N got in too, we left my home. I reached out and grabbed Y/N's thigh and i gently rubbed it and she put her hand on top of mine
'Pay attention to the road, before you make me act up' She said and we both laughed
After a while we arrived at the restaurant. I spotted some paparazzi shouting my name and I sighed
'I know this must be tiring for you so we can go back to your place or mine if you want to. I don't have a problem' Y/N said and I held her hand giving her a smile
'Of course not sweetheart, they can't make us leave and they won't, so let's go'
'Are you sure?' She asked me again and I nodded to her
She gently squeezed my hand for reassurance. I could sense that she was nervous which was completely logical. Even I get nervous in front of paparazzi. A few steps before the entrance of the restaurant, I turned my head and kissed Y/N, which made the paparazzi go crazy. I pulled away and I saw her smiling at me
We stepped inside the restaurant and picked a table. After a while the waiter came and asked us what we would like to drink. We both agreed on wine
Y/N's POV
The waiter came again and brought us our wines. We thanked him and we both took a sip of our drinks
It was an amazing night. And the fact that I was with Sarah made it seem a hundred times more beautiful. The restaurant was so fancy and too extravagant for people like myself, but Sarah made everything seem so simple. She was so beautiful and I looked over at her but she seemed quite nervous
'What's wrong Sar?' I asked grabbing her hand from across the table
'Uhmm.. Nothing. I-I just wanted to, you know, ask you something..' Her voice was trembling and she was now making me nervous too
'You can ask me anything' I said to her, although I was a little bit scared. What if she wanted a girlfriend that was sure about her sexuality and she was just tired of waiting for when I will feel ready? These thoughts made me so sad that I felt sick to my stomach
'Would you uhmm.. like to be my girlfriend?' She said and all the thoughts that I had just a couple of seconds ago, simply vanished
'Of course Sarah! You didn't even have to ask! God you made me so nervous' I replied to her with tears in my eyes and she leaned in and kissed me
'Hahaha sorry, I'm just not so good with asking these kind of things, it always makes me so nervous. But now I'm so relieved that you actually said yes' She said and neither of us could stop smiling. I felt so lucky to have her
'You are actually better than you think you are. I would never say no, and not just because you are Sarah Paulson. But because you make me so happy and I am really glad I met you' I said. The waiter came once again and asked us what we would like to eat
'Everything looks so delicious but I'll just have a pasta' Sarah said
'Me too' I replied to him. He noted down our order and I gave him back our menus
After we ate, we left the restaurant and we got into Sarah's car
'It was such a wonderful night. Thank you for everything Y/N' She said and she kissed me on my cheek
'No Sarah.. Thank you. You make me so much happier than I ever used to be. I can't thank you enough' She smiled at me and she checked her wrist watch
'Don't thank me yet.. The night isn't over' She smirked at me and started the car without telling me where we were headed to so i asked her
'Well if i tell you, it will not be a surprise anymore right?' She asked me
'Fine, I love surprises' I said and I held her leg like she held mine before. She looked at me and kissed the side of my head
There weren't any lights in the road, and it was pretty dark so I couldn't see anything from the window. After a while she stopped her car, and stepped outside. I did the same thing and I noticed that there were so many trees around us
'Where are we?' I asked Sarah and I held her hand because it was so dark and not knowing where I was made me feel kinda scared. But I trusted Sarah with my whole heart
'I come here when I'm sick of paparazzis and just need to be alone. Come on follow me' she said and I did
I turned on my phone's flashlight in order to see so that I could walk without falling because I assumed that we were somewhere high grounded. We passed through some trees, but then I finally saw what Sarah liked about this place
'Wow' I said while watching the whole city in front of us, and when I looked up at the sky, I could see so many stars 'This is so romantic' I said to Sarah and I looked deep into her big brown eyes
'I knew that you would love this place as much as I do. Come on, lie down' She said and then she did so herself.
I lay down next to her and turned my face so that I could watch her. She was smiling while looking at the stars and she seemed to be so happy
'What?' Sarah asked laughing
'Nothing.. I just think how lucky I am that I am with you here, tonight' I said
'And every tonight' She said and kissed me. She pulled me closer to her and then she was on top of me
I started touching her body and she did the same thing. She was kissing me so passionately and that's when I thought that I loved her so much so I built up the courage and I decided that I should tell her, so I pulled away from the kiss and looked into her eyes and she did the same thing
'I love you' We said together and we laughed
'You do?' I asked her in shock
'Of course I do silly. I waited to tell you this since I first saw you drunk in the bathroom and when we were dancing together. These days have been the best of my life, and I really don't want to lose you. I couldn't imagine myself without you' I was tearing up and I hugged her and she kissed the top of my head
'How can you always manage to say the best things and make me cry?' I said and I smiled at her
'Because I love you Y/N. And I won't stop loving you'
I closed my eyes and I tried to absorb these moments
Sarah Paulson loves me