Sid's pov.
I left the house smiling at her childlike antics and reached the store, I needed a few things and then I took the list out fetching all the things we need for these 50 days , I do not want to come out of our house again for shopping or for any other thing,I want to follow these rules very strictly , after spending almost an hour shopping ,I checked the list and saw that I bought all the things including her ice creams , I did a mental check if I missed something but I guess I am done here now its time to go home I reached home and look for sana ,she is nowhere to be found , I kept all the things in the kitchen and went in the living room thinking she might be watching TV, but when I reach there, she was not there, she might be upstairs , so I head upstairs, I also needed to take bath anyways , when I enter the room I saw she was sleeping I let her sleep as she could not get proper sleep last night, and took my clothes off and went inside the washroom I took shower then came out and she was still sleeping, I found it weird, she always wakes up with the lightest of sound, she is such a light sleeper. I went near her while buttoning my t- shirt and said
Hey baby wake up, kab se so rahi hai uth ja
No reply she is still sleeping I finish getting ready and then went near her and climbed on the bed beside her,she was sleeping peacefully covering herself with a thick blanket. I looked at her and she seems a bit pale, I touched her skin and saw it's hot . she have fever she is shivering under the blanket I got scared, when I left the house for shopping she was fine what happened in this one hour , I immediately called the doctor and checked her fever with thermometer .The doctor came within half an hour I covered Sana with another blanket and sat near her holding her hand and warming her but she was still shivering.
When the doctor came I called him in the bedroom and he looked at her and ask me few question about what and how it happened .
"You might have heard about the covid -19 virus and we need to check if the temperature is from covid or its just a normal fever" said the doctor. I told him that I went out shopping and when I came home she was sleeping and had fever , he further ask me of any possible reason for this , "so you are saying you don't know how his happened?" and I was not sure what to reply all I knew that we got drenched last night and it's not the first time that we got drenched so bad and had ice cream after that the doctor was quite angry he told me that the kind of a situation we are in right now ,we are supposed to take good care of ourselves and we are getting drenched and having ice cream then he did a few tests and ask me what kind of relationship we are in, first I was taken aback to hear the question but then he asked it again by looking at the ring and ask me if he needs to run a pregnancy test also, I was shocked for a minute I didn't knew what to say,
"Mr. shukla, I know it might sound weird but as a doctor I would suggest you to have a test if there is slightest possibility of pregnancy as you know if she is pregnant then you have to be extra careful towards her and she also need to take good care of herself as well as the baby, if you want to keep the baby" he said if we are in physical relationship we should go for a pregnancy test, right now I was not sure if I want to tell everyone that what kind of relationship we have ,but then he assured me that it will be confidential and he understand that we are famous people and this kind of things should not come out like that ,so finally after thinking for sometime I agreed have the pregnancy test , I know its her decision to make but she was unconscious, so she was not in the position to answer the question, the doctor said that looking at her and her face he can say with the experience that she might be pregnant and that's why he wanted to ask if we are in such kind of relationship , but right now I am not thinking about anything all I want right now is her safety and good health so I didn't think much and let him take the test .
After taking all her samples and giving medicines to bring her temperature down he left . I was sitting in the bedroom with her when she was sleeping and I was holding her hand thinking what and how she gonna react when she will know that she is pregnant , i am not sure if she is pregnant , she told me she takes the contraceptive shots every month, but as the doctor said that they are never 100 percent safe , so there is a slight chance of her being pregnant.I cant stop myself from thinking about her, her career is just started what if she does not want the kid I cannot tell her to keep it just for myself , I would love to have a kid with her ,I never saw myself as a father but with her I want everything and lately this has become one of my dreams to have kid and when there is a possibility of her being pregnant I cannot think of any other way, I so want the kid but I don't know if she is in a right mind to have the baby .
I know I proposed marriage to her and she agreed to get married to me but I don't know if she is ready to get married to me instantly, this is what I wanted to ask her tonight but this all happened, what if she doesn't want the kid, she has so many new project and her dreams are finally being realized, she worked so hard for this, I do not want to keep her away from all her dreams and aspiration and all her success . I know she has all the talent and now she is getting the right platform to showcase her talent and be famous,people love her so much she has become a big name in such a short period of time all because of good heart and her dedication and now the pregnancy and all she might not be comfortable and accepting towards it and I do not want her to feel bad about it,just because I want the kid I can't force her for anything, but I also want her to make the decision in her one I will support her completely in whatever decision she will make, but still its totally her to make, it will be her who decides if she want this baby or not ,these are the things we as a couple should have talked about , but we didn't, and as far as I remember she told me that she has taken the contraceptive shot and that is why I was careless I should have been more careful knowing how she is ,bshe is caring she is strong but she is a bit stupid she take her decision in a rash when it comes to her health and well being and she never really think deeply about anything I don't know what to do, I don't know how she will react I don't know how my family will react, my mum will be happy but I can't be sure about it she knows we love each other but I don't think knows about how deep we are in this relationship and the kid before wedding , it's a big deal here, what I should do I don't know I am so confused please wake up sweetheart I need to talk to you.
I was deep in my thoughts when I got a call from the doctor he said that the result will be out tomorrow and he will mail it to me as soon as it's out I thanked him for all the trouble he had taken for us and disconnected the call, when I once again looked at her all I wanted her to wake up and tell me what she thinks about it but I don't want to burden her before knowing the exact result I will tell her about it only when I know the result is positive or otherwise I will never tell her , but I will talk to her about it and even talk to her about getting married . We need now to be clear on many aspects and not only the romance I know we love each other so much and the feeling is for ever and it's not gonna change but there are so many other things to talk so much more to do then just love and romance , we are not kids anymore and we have a family and social status and a career and we need to balance all of these in accordance to our love and romance "please wake up sweetheart, please get well soon I can't see you like that you are my strength if you go weak what happened to me I can't take care of you the way you take care of me no matter how much I try ,I will never be good enough for you I always falter in some way or the other I always make mistake and you have to take care of me I cannot do that for you get well soon my love" and I didn't realise when the tears started falling from my eyes I don't remember last time I cried for someone like that what is she doing to me I got up from the bed immediately and went to the kitchen to make soup forr her and sandwich for myself I know she's sleeping and unconscious but she must be hungry I know and if she is pregnant she need to eat something, then I made chicken soup and sandwich for myself and bring it in the bedroom , I woke her up she is still not feeling well , I talked to her but she was not ready to reply anything so I just fed her the soup and she slept again I wanted to ask her about her health I slowly asked "what happened" and she said that she don't know she just felt weak and slept ,she didn't know when she got fever and how she got it, "it's ok sweetie, no problem, no need to worry, you sleep you need rest ;get well and tomorrow we will talk about it, I am here, if you need anything just tell me" and then I held her and then we slept ,next morning when I woke up , it was still partially dark outside , I can say it's still quite early il, I checked the time at it was 5:00 a.m. and everyone must be sleeping, I wanted to go for run but I didn't wanted to leave Sana alone so I decided against it, I went in the back to sleep and cuddle her tightly as she wrapped herself to me , I tried to sleep but sleep was far away from me , I gave up and got up from bed and then made coffee for myself , first I thought I should wake her up and check her temperature but then I decided against it I wanted her to sleep as long as she wants , it will help her heel fast, and then I wanted to wait for the mail to see thenbi will be able to talk to her properly but it's too early , and I didn't wanted to disturb the doctor he must be sleeping so I decided to wait for him to do it, and I sat on the bed thinking what to do , I thought deeply through both the possibility , if she is not pregnant I know I will be heartbroken and it will be a bit difficult to accept because of the hope I have already have, I know was not thinking about it to happen this soon but now when there is a little hope of having a kid I don't want it to vanish just as soon and then I also thought about the other aspect ,what if she is pregnant and doesn't want to continue her pregnancy, what if she wants her career to grow and it's not a bad thing to do, she said that for her career is the most important thing because she has fought many battle to be what she is now and she deserves all the success all the height she is getting right nowz then the other, what if she wants to keep the kid and get married and live a life of a housewife and what if after few years she feels she is not happy, what if she feels that she sacrifice the one thing she wanted the most because of one mistake , what if she thinks that this is mistake, I don't know what to say what to think I don't know what to do, I need her guidance I need her opinion I need her just her to tell me what she wants to tell me what we should do , and to tell me what is the best thing to do right now, she might be angry at me but I agree that she is more intelligent and more logical in these things I do not want to trouble her for my own sake I don't want to be selfish this time I didn't realise that it's 11 and I'm just sitting and thinking then I have my mail notification in my phone and I check that its from the doctor, I took a deep breath and opened it it has a report which have all kind of test result but my main focus right now is on the pregnancy test but somehow I need some time to look at it so I read her other report ,she needs iron and everything is fine she is having fever because of the exertion and cold so it's time are the main result I close my eyes took a deep breath prepare myself then open it to read and it says.