Betrayed
ACHING LEGS, dirty clothes messy hair. I never thought that I will be a prison. For the first time, I feel so helpless. I feel so alone. I'm wishing that zyon will came and help me, but he can't just announced that he's the fabled guardian.
The princes? I don't know where are they, I hate this feeling that I'm already defending myself to them, being protected. I hate this feeling that I'm hoping that they will came, and help me like how they help me before.
Everything right now is different, I was jail for rejecting smoke and even smoke didn't dare to save me here.
I look outside, and to my surprise. There he is, standing.
Everything about him is so different right now, ayan ba ang nagagawa ng pagiging isang hari? His aura, shouting for power, shouting for authority.
His hair is now long, he looks like a disney prince, wearing his uniform. Stars pinned on his shoulder, sword on his back. Ofcourse, his ash-black eyes. How I miss him.
And yeah, some stubbles on his face.
Ilang linggo na nga ba akong nakapiit? Dalawa? Tatlo? Isang buwan na ba? Ngayon lang siya nagpakita, ni hindi ko na mabilang ang araw na nailagi ko rito.
Wala na akong balita sa labas, I'm starting to get worry about zyon.
I lose my weight, halos isang beses lang ako pinapakain sa loob ng isang araw, at kung minsan pa ay kakaunti lamang ito. Ni hindi pumasok sa isip ko na magkakaganito ako.
I played with my hair, it's starting to grow longer.
I want to utter his name, I want to hold his hands. I want to kiss every part of his well-sculpted face.
"S-smoke..." I buckle. I can't even recognized my voice anymore, ngayon na lang ulit ako nagsalita, my voice are dry and so weak. Hindi ko alam kung narinig nya ba iyon.
I swallowed the lump on my throat. We're happy before right? We cuddle, we kiss. But, what now ezra.
Looking at him, made me so damn confuse. Ni hindi siya gumagalaw sa kinatatayuan niya, he's just looking at me. I can't even read his mind right now.
I was alarmed when the two guards open the metal door and held me aggresively. He's still there, looking away.
I wanted to cry, I wanted him to look at me. Held me away from this violent grip. But, he was there, nodding at the guard. I thought he was here to talk to me, to say that everything will be alright.
Dinala ako ng dalawang gwardya sa loob ng emeperyo, sa ibabang parte. My legs are still aching, thats why the guards need to pull me like a fvcking trash.
Wala na si smoke, he left me.
Ako ang nagtulak sa kaniya palayo, this is all my fault. He begged at me, he kneel infront of me, he even cry. He lower down his pride in able to win my back. But, I still push him away from me. What the heck I am feeling right now.
I look around, the modern empire with a touch of wooden furniture. There's a lady, infront of me. Wearing a fitted brown dress, ended up on her ankle. Umalis na din ang dalawang gwardya kaya, sumandal ako sa dingding para kumuha ng suporta.
"Hubad," my eyes widened a bit as I heard his word. "Hindi mo ba ako naririnig? Sabi ko hubad," she walk towards me. She was about to tear my clothes out when I push her.
Damn, I didn't even show my body to someone. This is so ridiculous, why does she want me to get naked?
"Lapastangan!" isang malakas na sampal ang tinamo ko dahil kung bakit ako natumba at tumama ang gilid ng labi ko sa posas na nakakabit pa din sa akin.
Right, the handcuffs.
She pull me up and tear my chlothes out. I closed my eyes as she scan every part of me. She's doing nothing, she's staring at me, holding my arms, scanning every fvcking side of my body.
She even check my hair, lumalagpas na ito sa balikat ko.
"wear this," inabot nya sa akin ang brown na na damit, na agad ko namang sinuot. It was also long and fitted dress. Ipinatali nya ang buhok ko ng pusod, she also give a spare of chlothes.
"Dalhin mo muna sya sa batis para maligo, pagkatapos ay sa kwarto nyo sa dadalhin. Doon siya mamamalagi" utos nya sa isang maliit na morenang babae, tinulungan ako nitong lumakad hanggang sa makapunta kami sa batis.
"ayos ka lang ba?" nag-aalalang tanong nya, tango na lang ang sagot ko. Hindi pa ako nakakabawi sa nangyari kanina.
"may sugat ka, gagamitin ko yan mamaya ah," naalala ko sa kaniya si ayisha. His feminine and soft voice.
Natapos na akong maglinis ng katawan kaya isinuot ko na ang bigay na damit ng babae kanina. Pina-alalahanan din ako ng babae na wag ilulugay ang buhok ko at panatilihin ko itong naka-pusod.
Habang naglalakad kami sa mahabang pasilyo, linya ng mga babaeng kapareha ko ng suot ang nakita kong naglalakad ng nakayuko ang ulo habang may hawak na mga putahe.
Sinundan ko ang daan na dinaanan nila, and there. The other side of the empire with an open area balcony. The third prince is sitting beside of his queen. He's still serious and now, he look more mature.
I blinked my eyes when I saw the tummy of his queen? If I am not mistaken, that was a bump. A baby bump...
My heart suddenly ache, of course. She's the queen, tungkulin niyang bigyan ng tagapagmana ang hari. I can't just imagine him, doing that 'thing' to other woman, we doesn't even made it before.
I felt betrayed, pakiramdaman ko tinalikuran na niya ako. Wala ba siyang ginawa para mailigtas ako? Gumawa ba siya ng paraan para mailabas ako sa piitan?
I looked away when he suddenly look into our direction. His ash-black eyes is so distracting. I exhaled a large amount of air when I saw his eyes.
Naglakad kami palayo, away from him. Away fron his gaze. Away from his cold stares.
Tuluyan ng nabuwal ang binti ko ng makalagpas kami sa pasilyo na iyon. I cried and cried, there's no other person here except from this girl.
Hindi sya nagsasalita, she was just standing beside me. Waiting for me to hush.
How can he do that? His stares are cold, he looked at me like he doesn't know me anymore. He looked at me like I was a stranger for him. He looked at me like ge doesn't love me anymore.
That baby bump? Maybe that was the reason, he will be a father soon and I am not his partner.
I stand up, I gather all my strength to pull myself up, even though my legs are still aching. I managed to walk.
Ilang minuto lang ang binilang ng makarating kami sa hiwalay na parte ng emperyo, may bahay doon sa gitna. A wooden house. Pumasok kami sa loob nun at kita ko ang mga babaeng kapareha ko ng suot, abala sa paglalaba, pagluluto o di naman kaya pagtatahi.
"ahm, eto nga pala ang nakaatas sa iyo. Maninilbihan ka sa hari at reyna tuwing gabi" I smiled bitterly. I am a poor servant now.
"wala ka namang ibang kailanggan gawin, bukod sa paglilinis ng silid nila. Pagpapalit ng sapin at pagpapaligo sa reyna. Buong gabi, tatayo ka lamang sa labas ng silid nila. Kung sakaling tawagin ka nila ay agad kang pumasok, yumuko ka ah. Pagkatapos ay tanungin mo kung anong kailangan nila"paliwanag niya, tumango na lamang ako.
"at kung wala naman silang kakailangin, mag aantay ka lang ng pagsikat ng araw, aantayin mo ang panibagong babae na papalit sayo. Hanggat wala pa ang babaeng papalit sayo ay hindi mo maaring iwanan ang hari at reyna" pagpapatuloy niya.
"Dahil nga sa gabi ang trabaho mo ay doon ka matutulog kasama nila, kasi kung dito ka matutulog ay maingay." nakangiti na siya ngayon sa akin.
Hindi ako gumaganti ng ngiti pero para atang hindi sya nangangalay kakangiti. I also notice her deep dimples on her both cheek. Which made her more cute. I think she's older than me, but she acts so carefree. She held her hand to me, still smiling.
"Hyacinth" tumama ang sinag ng araw sa mata nya. I was even amaze by her honey brown eyes.
"angel,"I said as I tap her hand. She still smiled at me and guide me to my room.
She's always wearing a smile, even though I don't treat her the same way. Weird.
Hours passed away, and here I am heading the main building for my first night as a servant. Mabagal ang naging lakad ko dahil sa kumikirot kong hita.
Nagkalat ang mga taga-silbi gaya ko sa buong emperyo, ang iba ay hapong-hapo na sa sobrang pagod, at mayroon din naman na kagaya ko, paumpisa pa lang sa trabaho.
Nasa labas na ako ng silid ng hari at reyna, I can feel my hands are shaking, knowing that the king and queen will arrive anytime soon. I put my hands infront of me, holding each other as I saw the queen and king walking towards their room.
"Oh hi! Did you eat na?" the queen ask me, I'm still leaning down as a sign of respect. Kahit anong yuko ko ay kitang kita pa din ang mukha ko dahil aa naka-pusod kong buhok.
"Yes, my majesty" I coldly replied. She just giggle and went inside the room. I remain myself facing the floor. He's still there.
My knees started to shake again when I heard his voice, that was so different from before.
"Oh, we have the new servant here"